匿名椅谈：毕业

对。

Yes.

这就是生活的艺术。

That's the art of life.

因为你当然想开到道路允许的最快速度。

Because you do wanna go as fast as the road will permit.

没错。

Right.

不然就会被撞上。

Otherwise, you get run over or hit.

不是。

No.

你只是尽量发挥到极致。

Just you just try to maximize.

哦，就当是图个乐子。

Oh, just for fun.

但你也不能冲出路边。

But you don't wanna go off the side.

对。

No.

确实不能。

You don't.

你得刚好贴着那个边缘走。

You wanna be right on that edge.

哇哦。

Wow.

皮皮。

Pippi.

皮皮可有不少智慧。

Pippi had a lot of wisdom.

这真不错。

That's nice.

是的

Mhmm.

他也有不少缺点，

And a lot of shortcomings too,

你知道的。

you know.

我们不都是这样吗？

Well, don't we all?

对。

Yeah.

我觉得他有矮个子自卑情结。

He had short man complex, I think.

天哪

Oh my

啊。

god.

我有必要深究这个吗？

Do I wanna get into it?

他是法国人。

He was French.

是混血的。

It was a mix.

双重打击。

Double whammy.

特别有法国范儿，也自认是地道的法国人。

Very French and identified as being very French.

觉得自己就是法国人。

Like Thought of himself as French.

哦，原来如此。

Oh, that's the lemma.

我们管他叫皮皮。

Well, we called him Pippi.

这混蛋

This motherfucker

据我所知，他根本不是那儿的人。

wasn't from I heard that.

他非让我们叫我奶奶Mimi，但她根本不想这么被叫。

And he was insisting that we call my grandma Mimi, but she she wasn't up for it.

所以这称呼没叫起来。

So that never stuck.

所以呢

So it

Pippi和奶奶。

Pippi and grandma.

他想搞成Pippi和Mimi这么一对。

He wanted to be Pippi and Mimi.

我知道。

I know.

所以Pippi是他们对法国爷爷的叫法。

But so Pippi is what they call a French grandpa.

那才是法国版的Mimi。

That's what a French Mimi.

但他不是法国人吧？

But he wasn't French?

他祖上是法国血统，但并不是从法国来的。

He was by ethnicity, but it's not like he came from

法国。

France.

对啊。

Like yeah.

他父母也不是从法国来的。

And his parents didn't come from France.

他都已经是第八十代了。

He was, like, eightieth generation.

你懂的。

You know?

没错。

Right.

他特别以Lebeaux这个姓氏为荣。

Took a lot of pride in the Lebeaux.

他叫他爷爷Pippi吗？

Did he call his grandpa Pippi?

是的。

Mhmm.

确实如此。

True.

哦，那这就说得通了。

Oh, well then that makes sense.

你大概也想这么叫吧。

You kinda wanna be calling Yeah.

但你说得对，我比利时奶奶得叫Mimi，虽然比利时那边可能说法语。

But to say that you gotta call my Belgium grandma Mimi, although maybe they speak French in Belgium.

也许他就是觉得这样叫挺可爱的。

Maybe he just thought that was cute.

但她显然没这么叫过。

And she obviously didn't

他出生时个子特别小，也没人给他取名字。

give him a and he was tiny.

结果根本没成功，这反而最有趣，因为

And it didn't work, which is the best part because

我们从来没人叫奶奶Midge吗？

we never called grandma Midge?

是的。

Yeah.

所以你根本就不是单纯叫她奶奶。

So you didn't really just call her grandma.

你一直叫她Midge奶奶。

You called her grandma Midge.

一直都是Midge奶奶。

Always grandma Midge.

对。

Yeah.

从来不叫奶奶。

Never grandma.

顺便说一下，Midge是她的别名，因为她觉得Madeline听起来像老太太的名字，而Midge更年轻有活力。

And to remind everyone, Midge was her replacement name because she thought Madeline was an old lady's name, but Midge was really youthful.

这真可爱。

That's really cute.

她还在世吗？

Is she still with us?

不在了。

No.

她是什么时候走的？

When did she pass?

就几年前的事。

Just a couple years ago.

我好像没听你说过。

I don't think you told me.

对不起。

I'm sorry.

奶奶米奇已经去世了。

Grandma Midge has passed.

这真的挺让人难过的。

That's really sad, actually.

别让我现在谈这些伤心事。

You know, don't make me mourn right now.

哦，好吧。

Oh, okay.

对不起。

I'm sorry.

我本来会给你妈妈发消息的。

I would have texted your mom.

可能是五年前的事了。

Might have been five years ago.

不清楚。

Don't know.

天哪。

Oh my god.

我和她渐渐没了联系。

I lost track with her.

你好。

Hi.

你是奥利维亚吗？

Is this Olivia?

就是她。

This is her.

我刚才给莫妮卡讲了些我听说的事吓她。

I was just scaring Monica with stories I of my learned

达克斯的奶奶五年前去世了，真是挺让人难过的。

a really sad thing that Dax's grandma died like five years ago.

是的。

Yeah.

好几年前了。

Years ago.

她现在有点难过。

And she's a little upset right now.

我还没告诉她。

I hadn't told her.

这确实是个大事。

Well, that's a big thing.

这么大的事却不告诉她，确实不太妥当。

That is a big thing to not share.

你去参加葬礼了吗？

Did you go to the funeral?

你根本没去。

You didn't.

要是去了，我肯定知道。

I would have known that.

没有。

No.

我真的没去。

I didn't.

别总这么逼我了。

Stop running me over the coals

我没有逼你。

I'm not.

我只是

I'm just

我特别爱我的奶奶，我也一直是个好孙子。

I loved my grandma and I was a good grandson.

我知道。

I know.

我没去参加葬礼。

I did not go to the funeral.

我甚至不确定有没有办葬礼。

I don't even know if there was one.

明白吗？

Okay?

所有的孩子都

All the kids were

分散在各处。

spread out.

甚至连邀请都给了。

Even invited.

我可能根本没被邀请。

I might not have been invited.

明白了。

Okay.

我倒是挺风光的。

Me great some grandstand.

你被邀请了。

You were.

你确实被邀请了。

You were.

我可不认这个说法。

I'm not taking that.

你其实不太够意思，因为你从来没跟任何朋友提起过。

Well, you were kind of a bad one because you didn't tell any of your friends that

她不可能让任何人这么说。

she had make anyone say that.

听我说。

Listen.

再说一遍，奥利维亚，假如我在酒吧里搭讪一个女人，说：嗨，我是达克斯。

Again, Olivia, if I saddled up to a woman at a bar and I was like, hi, I'm Dax.

你住这家酒店吗？

Are you staying at the hotel?

她要是说：对，我叫米奇。

And she said, yeah, I'm Midge.

哦。

Oh.

那我肯定会说，

I'd be like,

你这是在努力证明自己是个好孙子吗？

And this is you trying to prove you're a good grandson?

天哪。

My god.

你就是觉得

You're like, you're

你年纪比我大不少。

a little old for me.

对。

Yeah.

你看着四十岁，可名字却像千年前的。

You look 40, but your name is a thousand.

好吧。

Okay.

抱歉你被卷进这事了。

Sorry you got ensnared in that.

你现在在哪儿？

Where are you at?

我现在在爱荷华州探望家人。

I am currently in Iowa visiting my family.

说到祖父母，我这次来是为爷爷庆祝九十岁生日。

Speaking of grandparents, I'm here for my grandpa's 90 birthday.

天哪。

Oh my gosh.

太棒了。

That's wonderful.

这可真是巧得不得了。

What a ding ding ding.

这简直像剧本写好的一样。

That that's like so some scripted.

是的。

Yeah.

爷爷，生日快乐。

Happy birthday grandpa.

另外，恭喜你有这么好的基因。

Also, congrats to you on those genetics.

是的。

Yes.

他身体也特别健康。

He's like very healthy too.

所以，希望一切顺利吧。

So, yeah, fingers crossed.

但我住在芝加哥。

But I live in Chicago.

罗布，打个招呼。

So Rob, shout out.

我住在威卡德公园。

I live in Wickard Park.

就在我以前住的巴克镇隔壁。

Right next to where I lived in Bucktown.

我得说，Rob啊

I have to say Rob

他住过的地方可多了。

He's lived everywhere.

是的。

Yeah.

没错。

Uh-huh.

每次有人提到自己住在芝加哥哪儿，他都说，那地方离我那儿不远。

Time people say where they live in Chicago, he's like, that's by me.

我就住那儿。

That's where I live.

芝加哥没那么大。

Chicago's not that big.

没法跟洛杉矶比。

It's not like LA.

密歇根州也是同样的情况。

Also, this is the same for Michigan.

我待过米尔福德、海兰德、沃勒德湖、迪尔伯恩，还有底特律。

Like, I was in Milford, Highland, Walled Lake, Dearborn, and Detroit.

我知道。

I know.

但你们所有人都好像自己就住在那儿似的，其实根本不是。

But all you guys just act like you're right by where it is and you're not.

我觉得巴克镇和威克公园是连在一起的。

I will say Buck Town and Wicker Park are connected.

所以在这个情况下，我

So in this instance, I

我听懂你的意思了。

got I your

我以前也住过威克公园。

lived in Wicker Park at one point too.

在体育场里。

In the stadium.

是的。

Yes.

好的。

Okay.

你有个特别疯狂的毕业经历。

You have a crazy graduation story.

没错。

I do.

先说背景，2021年我在芝加哥伊利诺伊大学读硕士。

So to set the stage, I am in a master's program at the University of Illinois at Chicago twenty twenty one.

你读的是什么专业？

What's the graduate degree in?

我一定要知道。

I must know.

说实话，我有点担心你会问这个，因为这事挺怪的。

You know, I was a little worried you'd ask this actually because it's weird.

一半是医学，一半是设计。

It was half medical, half design.

专业叫生物医学可视化。

It was called biomedical visualization.

哦，真的吗。

Oh, wow.

你想想，疫情期间那个病毒的图片，红色的，带刺球的那个，就是我母校的人做的。

One of the easiest things to think about is, know, during COVID, when that image of the virus, the, like, red one with the spiky balls came out, that was made by somebody who went to school where I did.

哦。

Oh.

哦。

Oh,

挺有意思的。

interesting.

所以他们能制作出生物结构的艺术渲染图。

So they can make artist renderings of biological things.

我研究生毕业后第一份工作，是在一家公司做手术模拟，帮医生在真人身上动刀前练习操作。

My first job outside of grad school, I worked for a company that did surgical simulations to, like, teach doctors how to operate before they're doing it on a person.

后来我还给一家在线解剖教学公司做过类似的东西。

And then I also did it for, an elearning anatomy company.

真是挺小众的。

So niche.

你可以来洛杉矶做前期视觉预演。

You could come to LA and do previs probably.

哦？那是什么？

Oh, what's that?

拍那种复杂又昂贵的动作戏时，通常会先用数字技术把整个场景建出来，让大家提前看清楚每个人在什么时候、什么位置出现。

So when you're gonna do a complicated, really expensive action sequence, quite often they'll build the whole model digitally so everyone can watch it and get their sense of where they'll be in time and space.

所以如果你有兴趣，这条路是敞开的。

So that door is open to you in case you want.

好的。

Okay.

我不确定最近会不会搬去洛杉矶，不过我现在在读研，状态真的很差。

I don't know if I'll be moving to LA anytime But yeah, I'm in grad school and I am just very depressed.

就是根本开心不起来。

I'm just straight up not having a good time.

真的挺难熬的。

I'm really going through it.

现在一堆事堆在一起。

And there's just like a combo of things going on.

具体细节我就不多说了。

And I won't get into detail there.

但我心里想着，等毕业了，所有问题就都能解决了。

But I in my head, I'm thinking, okay, graduating school, that's going to fix all of my problems.

只要撑到5月7号，一切都会好起来的。

I just have to get to May 7, and then everything will be better.

为了时刻提醒自己，我在书桌旁贴了张便利贴，上面写着‘距离5月7日还有x天’。

To keep this forefront of my mind, next to my desk, I have a sticky note and it says x x days until May 7.

所以每天我都得把数字擦掉。

And so every single day I'm going, I'm erasing the number.

然后告诉自己：还剩302天。

I'm going, okay, three hundred and two days left.

嗯，明白了。

Okay.

还剩301天。

Three hundred and one days

就快了。

left.

对。

Yeah.

好的。

Okay.

就像个囚犯一样。

Like a prisoner.

提前整整一年就开始倒计时了。

Pretty much a full year in advance.

是的。

Yeah.

好。

Okay.

但我告诉自己，行，我能行。

But I'm like, okay.

我能做到。

I can do this.

毕业的日子终于到了。

Graduation finally arrives.

家人来城里了，一切都很顺利。

My family comes to town and everything's going well.

今天真是特别棒的一天。

It's a really great day.

我感觉特别好。

I'm feeling good.

从今往后，我的生活一定会越来越好。

My life's gonna be better from here.

一切都在往好的方向发展。

Things are really looking up.

那天虽然下雨，但谁在乎呢？

It was raining that day, but who cares?

就好像一切都完美极了。

Like everything's great.

我们和从外地赶来的家人朋友一起去吃了晚饭。

And we go out to dinner with my friends and my family who'd come to town.

晚饭后，我和朋友们去喝了点酒。

My friends and I go out to drinks after dinner.

我们出去喝酒的时候，我妹妹打电话给我未婚夫，说：‘妈被送进救护车了。’

And while we're out at drinks, my sister calls my fiance and says, Hey, mom's in the ambulance.

你赶紧过来一趟。

I need you to come here ASAP.

他们刚到酒店，正从停车场往酒店走。

They'd just gone to the hotel, and they were walking from the parking lot into the hotel.

那天又在下雨。

And it was raining that day.

晚饭后天已经黑了。

And it was dark after dinner.

我妈妈不小心从人行道踩空，掉进草地里，直接来了个前空翻。

And my mom accidentally stepped off of the sidewalk into some grass and did a full frontal split.

天哪。

Oh.

天哪。

Oh.

这本身就已经够糟了。

That was really bad in itself.

天哪。

God.

年纪这么大还摔成这样。

Late age splits.

而且她还装了人工髋关节。

And she also has an artificial hip.

哎呀。

Oh,

天哪。

boy.

天哪。

Oh, boy.

哎。

Oh.

这可真是双重打击啊。

Big double whammy there.

后来我们才知道，当她做出那个完全的前劈动作时，支撑髋关节的杯状结构裂开了。

And we find out later on that what happened when she does go into that full frontal split is the cup that holds the joint of your ball cracked.

结果整个关节就完全脱出来了。

And so it completely came out.

天啊。

Oh.

所以她的腿从髋臼里脱出来了。

So her leg is out of the socket.

对。

Yes.

就像芭比娃娃一样。

It's like a Barbie.

我只能想象一个

I just imagine a

她就是个芭比娃娃。

She's a Barbie.

对。

Yeah.

她现在是个变形的芭比娃娃。

She's she's a disfigured Barbie

没错。

right now.

哦。

Oh.

她被救护车送到了一家医院，那家医院在芝加哥虽然挺有名，但医疗水平实在不敢恭维。

She's taken by ambulance, and she's taken to a hospital that's pretty well known in Chicago for not being the best at all.

明白了。

Okay.

那家医院是哪家？

What kind of like the pit?

发生了很多事情。

Lots of things happened.

我不想把在医院的那段时间里发生的每一件琐事都讲给你听，免得你觉得无聊。

I don't want to bore you with every single thing that happened in the time we're at the hospital.

不过挑几个重点说说吧，首先，我们一到那儿，他们就把她打了一大堆镇静剂。

But to give a few highlights, one, they really drugged her up when we got there.

所以她在医院待的那段时间里整个人都迷迷糊糊的，简直神志不清。

So she was out of it the entire time we were in the hospital with her, like loopy out of her mind.

有一个特别吓人的时刻是在凌晨三点。

One especially spooky moment was at three a.

那时候。

Am.

她当时凯他命药效特别强，声音都变了，一边尖叫一边大笑，全混在一起。

She was like really high on ketamine and was like in a different voice and screaming and laughing all at once.

我们就在想，这到底是怎么回事？

And we were like, what is going on?

他们给她打针用的那些针头和东西，全都乱扔在她床边。

And what they used to give her the drugs, the needles and stuff like that they left all over the bed around her.

啊？什么？

Oh, what?

我刚到急诊室的时候，看到满地都是这些东西，完全懵了。

Which we found out like once I made it to the ER and like what is all of this?

我和我妹妹只好动手把那些东西收拾干净。

And my sister and I had to clean that up.

还有，他们把她从急诊室转到医院其他地方后，居然根本不告诉我们她被送去哪儿了。

Also, after they moved her out of the ER into the other part of the hospital, they just decided not to tell us where they're bringing her.

结果我们找了好几个小时，都没找到她在哪儿。

And so for hours, we're trying to find out where she is.

有些人还说，她根本不是这里的病人。

Some people are like, oh, she's not even a patient here.

整个事情乱成一团。

It's a big mess.

她肯定正躺在走廊里，等着有床位空出来。

She's undoubtedly in a hallway waiting for a bed to

腾出来。

open up.

没错。

Exactly.

我们正到处打听的时候，突然接到医院一位外科医生的电话。

But then as we're looking around, suddenly, I just get a call from a surgeon at the hospital.

因为我有她的医疗代理权，他说：我们现在就要给她做手术。

And since I am her medical proxy, he was like, we're taking her into surgery right now.

你只需要说一声同意就行。

And I just need you to say, okay.

我说：好吧，如果她真需要，那我就同意。

And I'm like, okay, if she needs it, I guess.

漫长的24小时终于熬过去，手术结束，医生告诉我，她情况稳定，可以转回爱荷华的家了。

A very long twenty four hours short, she got out of surgery, the surgeon told me she was stable enough to get back home to Iowa.

虽然没完全修好，但已经够让她回家了。

It wasn't fully fixed but it was like good enough to get her back home.

从那以后，我们得弄辆轮椅才能把她推出医院。

And from there we had to get a wheelchair to get her out of the hospital.

你心里肯定想：医院嘛，理所当然该给我们轮椅，我们拿了就走，巴不得赶紧离开这儿。

You're So thinking, okay, hospital, great, give us the wheelchair, we will take it, we are dying to leave here.

结果他们说：不行，你们得自己找轮椅。

And they say, Oh, no, no, you need to get your own wheelchair.

我以前真不知道医院还有这规矩。

That's something I never knew was a thing about hospitals.

于是我们开始在闲鱼上到处找。

And so we're scouring Facebook Marketplace.

还挨个问朋友和家人。

We're asking any friends and family.

网上各个角落都翻了个遍。

We're looking all over the Internet.

我猜很多人买了轮椅，后来用不上了。

I'd imagine people, they buy a wheelchair and then they don't need it.

我猜报纸上的免费信息版里，应该堆满了轮椅。

I'd imagine that the free section in the paper would contain tons of wheelchairs.

确实应该这样。

It should.

Facebook市场不允许卖这个，毕竟属于医疗设备。

Facebook Marketplace, that isn't allowed on there because it's a medical thing.

哦，原来如此。

Oh.

你得去Craigslist找。

You gotta go to Craigslist.

我们最后找到一个特别不靠谱的网站。

We end up finding like a really sketchy website.

我们给那个卖家打了电话。

We call up the guy.

他说：没问题，一小时后我过来把轮椅送过去。

He's like, okay, I can come drop it off in an hour.

他开着货车来了，把轮椅卸下来。

Comes in his van, he drops it off.

我们心想：太好了，赶紧走人吧。

We're like, great, let's get the hell out of here.

我们真的就这么走了。

We do.

现在我妈妈住回爱荷华了，我就在这儿探望她。

And now my mom lives back here in Iowa, where I'm visiting right now.

幸运的是，我刚毕业，手头正好有空闲时间。

And luckily, I just graduated, I had some open time.

于是我开车送她回家。

So I go ahead and drive her back home.

她躺在后座上，两条腿差不多是绑在一起的。

She's laying in the back seat, her legs, like tied together, basically.

天哪，这也太糟了。

Oh my god, this is horrible.

我们终于回到了爱荷华。

We make it back to Iowa.

第二天，我们去找她原来的髋关节外科医生。

The next day we go to her original hip surgeon.

他看了看。

And he like takes a look.

他说：不用操心，一切都正常。

He's like, Nope, everything looks good.

不用再做别的了。

Don't need to do anything else.

我当时说：可另一位医生说情况并不理想。

I was like, Well, the other surgeon said it's not all good.

他却说：真没事。

And he's like, Nope, it's fine.

两周后就是我的婚礼了。

And so two weeks later is my wedding.

那两周简直忙得不可开交，一边照顾我妈，一边赶着准备婚礼，之前好多事都推到了最后，因为我忙着毕业。

Oh, so fast forwarding through that two weeks of caring for my mom, doing last minute wedding prep, because I pushed a lot of stuff out because I was working on graduating.

终于到了婚礼当天。

Get to my wedding day.

我妈状态不错。

My mom was doing good.

她走路比之前好多了。

She was actually like walking a lot better.

我们还拍了母女俩特别温馨的镜头——我穿婚纱，她帮我扣扣子。

And we were doing like the cute mom daughter thing of I'm putting on my dress.

她一边帮我系扣子，一边笑着。

She's like buttoning it up.

接下来就要拍第一眼见面的场景了。

And then we are about to do first looks.

她突然摔倒了，手里还拿着一杯血色玛丽，酒全洒在我刚穿上的婚纱上，疼得厉害。

Suddenly, she falls over and she is like holding a mimosa, splashes in

到处都是。

all over

我刚穿上的婚纱，她还疼得不行。

my dress that I just put on and is in a ton of pain.

哦，等一下。

Oh, Hold on.

先停一下。

Pause for

过一会儿。

a moment.

这太糟糕了。

This is horrible.

我

I

我的意思是，这听起来确实很单薄、很笼统，但从外面看，你就会觉得，妈妈真的很难放手让女儿独立。

mean, again, this is so flimsy and generic, but from the outside, you could go, mom's really having a hard time letting go of daughter.

毕业就像是一个象征。

It's like the graduation's a symbol.

她会说

She goes

下去了。

down.

你是想说那种小户型公寓吗？

Are you suggesting munch houses?

还有现在的婚姻状况。

And then and then the marriages today.

她自己可能都没意识到，但身体上那种不独立的状态，其实就是在照顾自己。

Not even that she would be aware of it, but the way the body aren't in munch takes care of yourself.

是的。

Yeah.

好了，算了。

Anyways, okay.

这点值得提一下。

That's just worth noting.

我其实一年前生了孩子，当时我们还拿这事开玩笑。

I actually gave birth a year ago and we were joking about that.

我们就说，妈啊，你看——

We're like, oh, mom, like,

小心点。

be careful.

就像——

Like,

这可是个大妈妈。

it's a big mommy.

所以我们现在都能拿这个开玩笑了。

So we're at the point where we can joke now.

是的

Yeah.

也许你最好还是躺着别动了，妈。

Maybe it's best you just stay in bed, mom.

好吧。

Okay.

她把她的血色玛丽洒了你一身。

So she pitches her mimosa all over you.

她直接摔在地上了。

She hits the deck.

操。

Fuck.

妈。

Mom.

所以

So

她说她能行

she's like, I can

我能起来。

get up.

我真的能起来。

I can get up.

我们说，好吧。

We're like, okay.

她拼命想站起来，可就是起不来。

She's like trying to get up and she cannot get up.

我姨妈和姨父送她去了急诊室。

My aunt and uncle take her to the emergency room.

哦。

Oh

天哪。

my god.

这件事在好多方面都让人崩溃。

This is like devastating on multiple fronts.

我当然希望妈妈能参加我的婚礼，我特别希望爸妈能一起牵着我走过红毯。

Of course, I want my mom to be at my wedding, who I really wanted her as well as my dad to walk me down the aisle.

这对我来说真的特别重要。

That was something that was super important to me.

还有，我妹妹本来打算在仪式上唱歌的。

And then another thing is my sister was actually going to be singing during the ceremony.

她专门学了尤克里里，想给我个惊喜，边弹边唱一首歌。

She had like learned to play the ukulele and she was going to surprise me and like play the ukulele while she sang the song.

现在我妈妈在急诊室。

So my mom's in the ER.

她整个人都炸了。

She's like going like absolutely ballistic.

她彻底垮了。

She's devastated.

她整个人都崩溃了。

She's distraught.

她一直在问医生，能不能赶紧让她离开这儿？

She's like asking the physician like, can you just get me out of here?

今天是我女儿结婚的日子。

It's my daughter's wedding day.

她不知怎么的，一直念叨着我妹妹的那首歌。

And she's like going on and on about my sister's song for some reason.

她非得见你一面。

She's like Gotta see you.

我另一个女儿是弹尤克里里的。

My other daughter's playing the ukulele.

所以，我得走了。

So, like, I gotta go.

五分钟后，医生拿着尤克里里回来，弹了那首歌

Five minutes later, the physician comes back in with the ukulele and plays that exact song for

她。

her.

什么？

What?

这位是爱荷华州的医生。

This is an Iowa doctor.

对。

Yeah.

这不是同一个‘对’。

This is a different Yeah.

对。

Yeah.

对。

Yeah.

真恶心。

Ew.

这让我替别人感到特别不舒服。

That just made me feel grossed out for someone.

我不明白为什么。

I don't know why.

这么早就需要这种东西，我也不知道为啥。

Like, this early I needed it.

我不明白为什么。

I don't know why.

哦，这挺有意思的。

Oh, interesting.

我直接哭出来了。

Oh, it made me, like, sob.

我当时

I was

有人在照顾她，还让她感受到了一件好事。

like, someone's taking care of her and was making her have, a good thing.

但我

But I

我觉得你的意思是，你根本没法信任

guess my thought is the point You just don't trust

能弹尤克里里的医生。

doctors who can play Yuko.

不对。

No.

不对。

No.

不对。

No.

重点不是她想听一首尤克里里弹奏的歌。

The point wasn't that she wanted to hear a song on the ukulele.

而是她想看到自己的女儿在另一个女儿的婚礼上表演。

It's that she wanted to see her daughter play at her other daughter's wedding.

这位医生

This doctor

很明显，那就是他的本意。

Well, clearly, that's what it was.

从他身上榨出了这一点。

Made it out of him.

让我试着别说。

Let me try to no.

我开玩笑的。

I'm kidding.

我开玩笑的。

I'm kidding.

他其实是想说，那我给你个次优的选择吧。

He was trying to go like, well, let me give you the next best thing.

我知道。

I know.

我就是觉得

I just like don't

根本不知道自己为啥

even know why I

说了那话。

said it.

是的。

Yeah.

谢谢你的坦诚。

Appreciate your honesty.

对。

Yeah.

我觉得你不太信任那些弹尤克里里的医生。

I don't think you trust doctors who play ukulele.

也许吧。

Maybe.

我觉得，如果你往深了想，问题其实就在这儿。

I think if you dig deeper, that's what this is about.

也许背后有什么原因。

Maybe there's something

就在那儿。

there.

等等，我说真的。

It's like, wait.

你干嘛非得会弹不可？

Why you gotta know how to play?

用手指头弹？

With his fingers?

比如说，可能是因为

Like, maybe that

这跟医疗领域有关

translates into the medical

时间。

time.

他不该有时间。

He shouldn't have time.

我就是不明白，医院里怎么会有尤克里里，他大概是

Just don't understand how there was ukulele at the hospital He's

在讨好护士吧。

probably wooing nurses.

对啊。

Yeah.

看到了吧？

See?

是啊。

Yeah.

现在你

Now you

他在那儿认识的。

met there.

你这是在带我去那儿。

You're getting me there.

所以。

So

护士当时在房间里，用iPad给他翻乐谱。

The nurse was in the room, like, holding the sheet music for him on an iPad.

他们专门查了曲谱。

They'd, looked it up.

我还是挺喜欢的。

I still like it.

我妈妈最后还是赶上了婚礼。

My mom actually ended up being able to make it to the wedding.

他们总算把事情安排妥当了。

They like got it in place enough.

我们只是把仪式推迟了一点，她还是能送我走过红毯。

We just pushed back the ceremony a little bit and then she was able to still walk me down the aisle.

你得再买一辆轮椅吗？还是怎么解决她的出行问题？

Did you have to buy a second wheelchair or how did she get around?

我们那辆还留着呢。

We had that one still.

明白了。

Okay.

奥利维亚，我对这一连串的事情有些想法。

So Olivia, I have some thoughts about this whole chain of events.

我有点担心你安排日程太紧了。

I'm worried about how ambitious your scheduling is.

是的。

Yes.

你居然把婚礼安排在毕业后的两周内。

The notion that you scheduled your wedding two weeks after graduation.

我不想说出来的。

I didn't wanna say it.

听起来有点像那么回事。

Seems a thought little the same.

但我觉得是因为你心里想着，得赶紧把大学读完，然后开始新生活。

But I think it's because you're like, I gotta be done with college and I gotta start my life.

而开始新生活，就意味着要结婚。

And starting my life means I'm getting married.

我想赶紧了结这一切。

I'm gonna be done with this.

大学怎么就那么糟呢？

Why was it so bad, The college.

哦，主要是因为一些个人的事情。

Oh, it was like a lot of personal things.

而且我们上大学那会儿正好碰上疫情。

And then we were in college during COVID.

我就一个人坐在桌前，整夜没睡，自己待着，快有点疯了。

I'm just sitting alone at my desk and like up all night like alone and like kind of going a little bit loopy by myself.

不过，婚礼要是赶在两周后，我真不建议任何人这么干。

But, yeah, the wedding two weeks after would not recommend to anybody.

我当时就想，赶紧把这事办了，以后就不用再操心了。

I think I was just like, let's just get it done, then I don't have to worry about things anymore.

这本来不关我的事，但我觉得我现在也够岁数了。

But this is none of my business, but I will say I'm old enough now.

说真的，我们这一辈子大概就是这么一步步走过来的。

It's like, unfortunately, that is how we march through life.

就是，赶到这个阶段。

It's like, get to this thing.

再赶到那个阶段。

Get to that thing.

结果你根本没意识到，不对，这才是生活本身。

And then you you don't realize, no, that's life.

这就是生活。

That's life.

你错过了它。

You're missing it.

对。

Yes.

你错过了它。

You're missing it.

我正试着

Trying to

赶着去下一件事。

speed to this next thing.

这太人性了。

It's so human.

最后我想说，那个便利贴现在让我觉得毛毛的，因为我当时一直在倒数，盼着那件糟心事早点来。

The one last thing I wanted to say was that sticky note creeps me out now that I was, like, counting down the days until this, like, bad thing happened.

是的。

Yeah.

我总是跟我丈夫说，我真的特别讨厌想到那张便利贴。

All the time, I'll say to my husband, like, I just, hate thinking about that sticky note.

它就像我给自己设的一个末日倒计时。

It's like a doomsday clock I had for myself.

他跟我说，你想得太多了。

And he's like, you're thinking way too much into it.

没那么严重。

Like, it's not that big a deal.

我们采访的人越多，就越觉得人的大脑能想出这么多我们自己都搞不懂的事。

The more people we interview, it's like the mind's capable of these crazy things we don't understand.

天哪。

Oh my god.

对吧？

Right?