冰箱门（初学者）

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今天这个初级故事叫《冰箱门》。

Today's beginner level story is called the freezer door.

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我有个好消息和一个坏消息。

So I have good news and bad news.

好消息是。

Good news.

我找到新工作了。

I have a new job.

如果你听过几期前我讲汉堡的那期，应该记得我说过我在找一份兼职。

If you listened to a few episodes ago my episode about Hamburg I talked about how I was looking for a part time job.

结果我确实找到了，但不是在酒吧或咖啡馆，而是在一家语言学校。

Well I got the job but not in a bar or a cafe as I was originally looking but I actually got a job in a language school.

所以还是做我本来就擅长的事。

So doing more of what I already do.

但这真是个好消息，因为这是我自2019年疫情前以来，第一次在实体教室里上课。

But it's very welcome and it's actually the first time I've taught in a physical classroom since before COVID, since 2019.

感觉真的很棒，不过适应起来还挺奇怪的。

So it feels really good Although it's quite a strange adjustment.

我得改掉很多习惯。

I have to change a lot.

从很多方面来说，这份工作更累，主要是我得去学校上课。

It's harder work in many ways, mainly because I have to go to the school.

不能像以前那样在家教课了。

I can't just teach from my house.

我录这段话的时候是周四，我周一刚入职，从那以后就一直忙个不停。

So the day I'm recording this, it's Thursday, and I started my new job on Monday, and I've been very busy since then.

总的来说，就是特别忙。

I've just been generally busy.

这就说到我的坏消息了：今天我特别累，还有点不舒服。

And that brings me to my bad news, which is I'm very tired today and a little bit ill.

你可能会听出我有点感冒，那是因为我刚从曼彻斯特过完周末回来，就马上开始了这份新工作，最近生活中其他事情也一堆。

You might hear a bit of a cold, and that's because I started this new job right after going to Manchester for the weekends as I have lots of other things going on in my life.

明天，也就是这期节目发布之后，我要去英国国家图书馆工作，那应该是英国最大的图书馆。

Tomorrow, which will be after this episode comes out, I'm doing some work at the British Library, which is the biggest library in The UK, I think.

也许牛津的博德利图书馆更大一些，但不管怎样，它是英国最大的图书馆之一。他们正在为年轻人办一场艺术活动，我帮忙主持一个类似脱口秀的环节。

Probably it might be the Bodleian, which is a library in Oxford, but it's one of the biggest libraries in The UK, and they're doing an event for young people to get involved in the arts, and I'm helping run a kind of talk show.

这个不太好解释，不过如果你看的是视频版，我会放一些照片给你看。

It's kind of difficult to explain, but if you're watching the video version of this episode, I will show some pictures.

所以，如果我今天听起来很累，那是因为我真的挺累的。

So all of that to say, if I seem tired today, it's because I am.

好了，我来解释一下今天故事里的一些词。

Okay I'll just explain some words that are in today's story.

Freeze，拼写是 F-R-E-E-Z-E，过去式是 froze，F-R-O-Z-E，意思是东西变得非常冷时的状态。

Freeze f r e e z e and the past tense is froze f r o z e is what happens when something gets very cold.

水一旦变得很冷，就会结冰。

When water gets very cold it freezes and becomes ice.

如果河或湖结冰了，你就能在上面走路。

If a river or lake freezes, you can walk on it.

如果外面特别冷，你可以说：‘哇，冷死了。’

If the weather is very cold outside, you can say, oh, it's freezing.

如果你正在移动，然后突然停住，那就是僵住了。

If you are moving and then you suddenly stop, you freeze.

比如警察要抓人的时候，就会喊：‘别动！’

For example, when the police want to catch someone, they say, freeze.

那是警察在喊话。

It's the police.

你厨房里可能有个冷冻箱，f-r-e-e-z-e-r。

In your kitchen, you might have a freezer, f r e e z e r.

冷冻箱就是那种大大的白色箱子，用来放食物。

Freezers are big white boxes that you put food in.

冷冻箱比冰箱还冷，所以把食物放进去，就会冻起来。

Freezers are colder than a fridge, so when you put food inside a freezer, it freezes.

比如，你可以把冰块、冰淇淋、冷冻蔬菜这些东西放进冷冻室。

For example, you can put ice in a freezer, ice cream, frozen vegetables, and so on.

冷冻豌豆和冷冻胡萝卜在冰箱里很常见，因为它们能放很久。

It is very common to have frozen peas and frozen carrots in your freezer, for example, because you can keep them for a long time.

脸颊就是嘴巴和耳朵之间的脸部区域。

Your cheeks are the parts of your face between your mouth and your ears.

在一些欧洲文化里，人们见面时会亲吻对方的脸颊打招呼。

In some European cultures people kiss each other on the cheek to say hello.

有些地方打招呼要连着亲好几下，每次换另一边脸颊。

In some places you kiss people on the cheek multiple times and you change cheek each time.

这有时候真容易搞混。

This can get confusing.

法国某些地方是亲三下，有些地方亲四下，甚至还有地方要亲五下才算打招呼。

In some parts of France people kiss three times on the cheek, in some parts they kiss four times, and there are even places where you kiss people five times on the cheek to say hello.

挑食的意思是把东西一小块一小块地扯下来。

To pick at means to pull small pieces off something.

比如，你面前摆着一盘菜，但你并不饿，就可能会随便挑着吃几口。

For example, if you have a plate of food in front of you, but you're not hungry, you might pick at it.

你只会吃一点点东西。

You would only eat small bits of food.

有些人一紧张就会抠皮肤。

Some people pick at their skin when they get anxious.

他们把皮肤抠掉一小块，直到发红。

They pull off bits of skin until it goes red.

如果抠皮肤的行为变得严重，影响到健康，这就叫皮肤搔抓障碍。

When picking at your skin becomes a serious health problem, it's called dermatillomania.

‘Kid’，拼写是 K-I-D，是‘孩子’的非正式说法。

Kid, k I d, is an informal word for child.

老年人常会说的一句话是‘现在的孩子’。

A phrase that old people often say is kids these days.

说实话，日常生活中，我们通常说‘我孩子’，而不是‘我子女’。

To be honest, in everyday life we usually say my kids instead of my children for example.

噩梦就是一种可怕的梦。

A nightmare n I g h t m a r e is a bad dream.

如果噩梦特别吓人，你可能会被吓醒。

If a nightmare is really scary, you might wake up from it.

做特别糟糕的噩梦时，醒过来反而会感觉好一些。

If you're having a really bad nightmare, it can feel better to wake up.

醋栗是一种水果。

Gooseberries g o o s e b e r r I e s are a type of fruit.

醋栗是小小的绿色浆果，表面还长着细毛。

Gooseberries are small green berries that have little hairs on them.

醋栗特别酸，所以人们通常拿它做果酱，而且会加很多糖。

Gooseberries are very sour so people usually make jam with them and they add lots of sugar.

还有一种很受欢迎的甜点叫醋栗布丁，有点像酸奶或者慕斯。

There is also a popular dessert called Gooseberry Fool which is a bit like a yogurt or a mousse.

海边有时会有很高的岩石，这些叫悬崖。

By the sea there are sometimes very high rocks and these are called cliffs.

如果你从悬崖上掉下去，会摔得很远。

If you fall off a cliff you will fall a very long way.

不是所有悬崖都在海边，很多山身上都有悬崖。

Not all cliffs are above the sea, mountains often have many cliffs.

英格兰有一处著名的白垩岩悬崖，叫多佛白崖。

There are famous chalk cliffs in England called the White Cliffs Of Dover.

清醒的意思是没喝醉。

Sober s o b e r means not drunk.

有人喝醉后，会通过一些方法让自己清醒过来，这叫醒酒。

When someone is drunk and does things to become sober, they sober up.

比如，你可以喝点水，吃些富含碳水化合物的食物来醒酒。

For example, you might drink water and eat food with lots of carbohydrates to sober up.

如果一个人长期喝酒，导致生活出问题，那他就是酒鬼。

If someone drinks alcohol all the time and it causes problems in their life, then they are an alcoholic.

如果一个酒鬼说‘我醒酒了’，通常意味着他彻底戒酒了。

If an alcoholic says I've sobered up, it usually means that they have stopped drinking completely.

有一个叫匿名戒酒会的组织，专门帮助酗酒者戒酒、戒除酒瘾。

There is an organization called Alcoholics Anonymous which helps alcoholics stop drinking and sober up.

匿名戒酒会通常简称为AA。

Alcoholics Anonymous is often shortened to AA.

所以当有人提到去参加AA会议，大概就是指这个。

So when someone talks about going to an AA meeting, this is probably what they are talking about.

称重就是判断某物是轻还是重。

When you weigh something w e I g h, you see how heavy or light it is.

比如，你可能会称一下行李箱的重量。

For example, you might weigh your suitcase.

如果行李箱不超过二十公斤，就能带上飞机；要是超了，就不行。

If your suitcase weighs less than 20 kilograms you can take it on the plane, but if it weighs more you can't.

权衡就是考虑一件事的利与弊。

When you weigh something up you consider the advantages and disadvantages of something.

比如，你可能在纠结是去伦敦度假还是去柏林。

For example, maybe you're trying to decide whether to go on a holiday to London or Berlin.

你要权衡每一方面的利弊。

You weigh up the advantages and disadvantages of each.

也许你觉得伦敦历史悠久，而柏林夜生活精彩，这两点对你来说最重要，所以你得在伦敦的历史和柏林的夜生活之间做个取舍。

Maybe you decide that London has great history but Berlin has a great nightlife and that these are the two priorities for you, so you have to weigh London's history against Berlin's nightlife.

你需要比较这两者，才能做出这个艰难的决定。

You compare the two to make this difficult decision.

当然了，我会说你该来伦敦，因为我特别喜欢伦敦。

Although of course I would say you should come to London because I love London.

所以今天这个故事的一个核心主题是平行宇宙。

So a big theme in today's story is parallel universes.

平行就是两条线并排走，却永远不会相交、永远不会接触。

Parallel is when two lines run next to each other but they never meet, they never touch.

平行宇宙指的是存在多个宇宙，每个世界都几乎一模一样，只在一些细微的地方有所不同。

So parallel universes is the idea that there are different universes, worlds where everything is the same except for a few small things.

有很多电影讲的是穿越平行宇宙，主角能看到如果当初做了不同选择，生活会变成什么样。

There are many films about traveling through parallel universes where the characters can see what would happen if they had made a different decision.

比如电影《瞬息全宇宙》讲的就是平行宇宙。

For example the film Everything Everywhere All at Once is about parallel universes.

平行宇宙有时候也叫镜像世界。

Parallel universes are sometimes called mirror worlds.

在这个故事里，我把它们叫做镜像世界，就像照镜子看到的世界一样。

In this story I call them mirror worlds, they are like reflection of the world is in the mirror.

但肯定有一处不一样，这么说来，它其实算不上真正的镜子和倒影，因为倒影应该是完全一样的。

But of course, at least one thing is different, which I guess means it's not really a mirror and a reflection because a reflection is exactly the same.

也许是因为镜子脏了，所以照出来的才不完美。

Maybe the mirror is dirty and that's why it's not a perfect reflection.

不过，说回这个话题。

Anyway, about that.

仔细听，好好感受。

Listen and enjoy.

冰箱门。

The freezer door.

我很难过。

I was sad.

我很强壮，也很聪明，工作不错，爱我的丈夫，孩子们也爱我，可我还是很难过。

I was strong, and I was clever, and I had a good job, and I loved my husband, and my children loved me, but I was sad.

我以为自己是快乐的。

I thought I was happy.

我心想，我一定得是快乐的，因为难过的人不会醒来就亲吻丈夫的脸颊。

I must be happy, I thought, because sad people don't wake up and kiss their husbands on the cheek.

难过的人不会烤新鲜面包，把吐司送到孩子床上。

Sad people don't bake fresh bread and bring toast to their children in bed.

难过的人不会去跑步，上班前冲个冰凉的澡。

Sad people don't go for a run and have an ice cold shower before work.

我当然不快乐。

I wasn't happy, of course.

快乐的人不会一直抠脸颊，直到抠得发红。

Happy people don't pick at their cheeks until they go red.

开心的人不会说‘我不饿’，却看着孩子吃晚饭。

Happy people don't say I'm not hungry and watch their kids eat supper.

开心的人不会看到凌晨四点还在看书，然后做噩梦。

Happy people don't read books until 4AM and then have nightmares.

但日子还得继续过。

But life continued.

我一天天地数：星期一、星期二、星期三。

I counted the days: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday.

我一个月一个月地数：四月、五月、六月、七月。

I counted the months: April, May, June, July.

我一年一年地数。

I counted the years.

当然，这日子看不到头。

Of course there was no end.

我并不希望它结束。

I didn't want an end.

我害怕有终点。

I was afraid of an end.

当丈夫说，等孩子们长大离家后，我浑身发冷，真想说不。

When my husband said, when the kids grow up and leave home, I felt as cold as ice and I wanted to say no.

可有一天，我打开了冰箱门。

Then one day I opened the freezer door.

那天是炎热的夏日。

It was a hot summer's day.

我本想给孩子们拿点冰淇淋，是我自己做的覆盆子味的。

I was getting ice cream for the kids, Gooseberry ice cream that I had made.

可打开冰箱门时，我没看到冻胡萝卜和覆盆子冰淇淋。

But when I opened the freezer door, I did not see frozen carrots and Gooseberry ice cream.

我看见了我的厨房。

I saw my kitchen.

冰箱像面镜子，可镜子里的厨房，空无一物。

The freezer was like a mirror, but inside the freezer the kitchen was empty.

我在那个厨房里，根本看不到自己。

I could not see myself in that kitchen.

我在那个世界里，也找不到自己的影子。

I could not see myself in that world.

妈！

Mom!

我从外面喊了女儿一声。

Called my daughter from outside.

我一下子僵在了原地。

I froze.

我深爱着我的孩子们。

I loved my children.

我会关上这扇门，再打开一次，那个诡异的镜中厨房就消失了。

I would close this door and open it again, and then the strange mirror kitchen would be gone.

那时我就能看到冻好的胡萝卜和接骨木莓冰淇淋，一切都会恢复正常。

And I would see the frozen carrots and Gooseberry ice cream, and everything would be normal.

我开始关上门。

I started to close the door.

妈妈，我儿子喊了一声。

Mom, called my son.

我的手停住了。

My hand stopped.

我回头看了看。

I looked behind me.

我那一瞬间看到了我的孩子们。

I saw my children for a second.

我从他们眼里看到了爱。

I saw the love in their eyes.

然后我走进了冷冻室，关上了门。

Then I climbed into the freezer and shut the door.

对不起，我说了这句话，但我的声音被冰吞没了。

I'm sorry, I said, but my words were eaten by the ice.

第一年的时候，我老想着要不要回去。

In the first year I thought a lot about going back.

我一次次打开又关上冷冻柜，可每次看到的都是同样的东西——冻胡萝卜和巧克力冰淇淋。

I opened and closed the freezer again and again, but I always saw the same things frozen carrots and chocolate ice cream.

我试过把冷冻柜里的东西全掏出来。

I tried emptying the freezer, taking everything out.

没用。

That didn't work.

我还试过自己做醋栗冰淇淋，把冻胡萝卜原封不动地放回原来的位置，可还是没用。

I tried making Gooseberry ice cream and putting the frozen carrots exactly where they had been before that didn't work.

我试过半夜睡不着的时候，悄悄打开冷冻柜的门。

I tried opening the freezer door at midnight when I couldn't sleep.

也没用。

That didn't work.

到了第二年，我就不再试了。

By the second year I had stopped trying.

我过着新的生活，尽量不去想过去的事。

I lived my new life and tried not to think about the old one.

我在这里更快乐吗？

Was I happier here?

其实没有。

Not really.

但我一个人待着。

But I was alone.

我不明白为什么这个平行世界会不一样，为什么这里没有丈夫，也没有孩子，可事实就是如此。

I did not know why this mirror world was different, why I had no husband or children here, but that was how it was.

我一个人待着。

I was alone.

当你孤单的时候，就会感到悲伤。

And when you're alone, you can be sad.

没人会问：妈妈，你为什么老抠脸上的皮肤？

Nobody says, mommy, why are you picking at your cheek?

没人会问你：宝贝，又做噩梦了？

Nobody says, did you have that nightmare again, love?

所以这五年，我一个人跌落。

So for five years, I fell alone.

我沉溺于酒精、派对和冰淇淋，超市里那种便宜的冰淇淋。

I fell into alcohol and partying and ice cream, cheap ice cream from the shop.

我工作得一塌糊涂。

I did my work badly.

我经常迟到。

I was often late.

最后，我丢了工作。

Finally, I lost my job.

于是我去酒吧找了份工作。

So I took a job in a bar.

我开始抽烟。

I started smoking.

作恶的感觉还挺爽的。

It felt good to be bad.

但到了第五年，我差点没命。

But in year five I almost died.

我喝得太多，一个人去森林里散步。

I drank too much and went walking in the forest.

我不小心从悬崖上摔了下去，腿断了。

I fell off a cliff and broke my leg.

要不是有人路过发现我，我早就死了。

If someone hadn't come and found me, I would have died.

就在那时，我明白了真相。

And that was when I learned the truth.

我其实并不想死。

I did not want to die.

我躺在悬崖底下，腿断了，疼得要命——真的，没什么比这更疼了——就在那一刻，我明白了，我根本不想死。

There at the bottom of the cliff lying with a broken leg and it hurt a lot believe me it hurts like nothing else there I learned that I did not want to die.

从那以后，我花了五年时间慢慢爬起来。

So after that it was five years of climbing.

我努力康复腿部，加入了戒酒互助会，每周都去参加聚会，开始去健身房锻炼，彻底戒了酒，然后在健身房认识了一个男人。

I worked hard to make my leg better, I joined AA, went to meetings every week, I started going to the gym, I sobered up and I met a man at my gym.

他让我想起了我以前的丈夫。

He made me think of my old husband.

我以前的丈夫。

My old husband.

我在这世界里生活了太久。

I had lived in this world for so long.

有时候我觉得，另一个世界才像一场噩梦，而这里才是真实的。

Sometimes I thought the other world was a nightmare, and this was the real one.

但后来我想起了我以前的丈夫，还有我的孩子们。

But then I remembered my old husband and my old kids.

那个健身房的男人有点像我以前的丈夫，只是头发短一些。

The man from the gym was a bit like my old husband, but his hair was shorter.

其实，他大部分头发都掉光了。

Actually, he had lost most of it.

他也很清醒。

He was also sober.

他好几年前就不去参加戒酒会了。

He had stopped going to AA years before.

他再也不需要了。

He didn't need it anymore.

我们聊了很多关于戒酒的事。

We talked a lot about being sober.

戒酒者总是没完没了地谈论自己是否还清醒。

Alcoholics always talk a lot about being sober or not being sober.

他比我大，我挺喜欢这一点的。

He was older than me and I liked that.

我们都清楚，年纪太大了，不可能再要孩子，而且也根本不想要。

We both knew we were too old to have kids and really we didn't want kids.

慢慢地，这个全新的他搬进了我的家，到年底时，我们已经住在一起了。

Slowly this new man moved his things into my house and by the end of the year we were living together.

感觉很好。

It was nice.

我们都曾陷入低谷，都跌过悬崖，而现在，我们并肩站在了一片安全的土地上。

We had both been sad and we had both fallen off a cliff, and now we stood together in a safe place.

渐渐地，我不再想着那个地方，那个过去的世界。

Slowly, I stopped thinking about the other place, the old place.

这个世界成了真实的，而过去的一切，反倒像一面镜子中的倒影。

This world became the real one, and the old place became the mirror world.

一个炎热的夏日，我们坐在花园里看书。

One hot summer's day we were sat in the garden reading.

我去给你拿杯饮料吧？

Shall I get us a drink?

我说。

I said.

他笑着说，‘来点冰的吧。’

Please, he said with lots of ice.

于是我走进厨房，打开了冷冻柜的门。

So I went into the kitchen and opened the freezer door.

接下来发生什么，你肯定知道。

You know what happens next.

有一瞬间，我根本认不出眼前是什么。

For a moment I didn't know what I was looking at.

他们把厨房改了。

They had changed the kitchen.

地板换了，墙也重新粉刷了，但我一眼看到了那座老钟，才明白这还是我的厨房——我原来的厨房。接着，我看见了他们。

There was a new floor and they had painted the walls, but I saw that old clock and realized it was my kitchen, my old kitchen and then I saw them.

我的孩子们几乎都长大了。

My children were almost adults now.

我儿子坐在桌边，捧着杯茶，正在写东西，准备考试；我女儿在玩手机。我的心猛地一沉，等着看我的丈夫在不在——他在吗？

My son was sat at the table with a cup of tea writing something preparing for an exam my daughter was playing on her phone my heart thudded as I waited to see my husband Was he there?

他还活着吗？

Was he alive?

喂？

Hello?

我喊了一声。

I said.

于是我又喊了两声，喂，喂。

Then hello, hello.

但他们看不见我，也听不见我。

But they couldn't see me or hear me.

我女儿说了句话，然后我就看到了我丈夫。

My daughter said something and then I saw my husband.

他正在调饮料，走到冰柜拿冰块，现在就站在我面前。

He was making drinks, he came to the freezer to get ice and now he was standing right in front of me.

我看得出来，这十年他变化有多大。

I could see how much he had changed in ten years.

他脸上每一道新皱纹，每一根白发，我都看得清清楚楚，近得都能亲他一下。

Every new line on his face, every grey hair, he was so close I could kiss him.

亲爱的，你喊什么呢？

Love, what are you shouting about?

听着挺有意思的。

It sounds like fun.

我一下子僵在原地。

I froze.

我身后，我的新丈夫在叫我。

Behind me, my new husband called.

我面前，我的前夫从冰箱里拿出冰块，站起来，揉了揉腰，说：哎呀，真老了。

In front of me, my old husband took ice out of the freezer, stood up, held his back, and said, oh, I'm getting old.

我听不见声音，但我知道他说的是什么。

I couldn't hear, but I knew what he was saying.

他这话已经说了快二十年了。

He had been saying that for about twenty years.

一堵冰墙隔开了新的我和旧的我。

A wall of ice stood between the new me and the old me.

转眼间，门就要关上了，也许再也不会打开。

In a moment, the door would close, and it might never open again.

我得在两个自己之间做选择，但说到底，其实是在他和他们之间选一个。

I had to choose between me and me, but really I had to choose between him and them.

我得权衡，我给旧家庭带来的痛苦，和我即将给新丈夫造成的痛苦。

I had to weigh the pain I had caused my old family against the pain I would cause my new husband.

我的旧家庭已经尝过那种痛苦了。

My old family had felt that pain already.

他们都已经重新开始了生活。

They had made new lives.

但这份痛苦，可能让我的新伴侣承受不住。

But the pain might be too much for my new man.

可能会要了他的命。

It might kill him.

你觉得呢？

What do you think?

我确实这么做了。

I did.

我是不是该回到原来的家人身边，跟他们道歉，说我很伤心，不得不离开？

Did I go back to my old family, say sorry, tell them I was too sad and I had to leave?

我是不是该把新丈夫丢在烈日下，把他推下悬崖，让他永远不知道我发生了什么？

Did I leave my new husband out in the sun, throw him down a cliff so that he would never know what happened to me?

还是说，我原来的丈夫关上了冷冻柜的门，替我做了这个决定？

Or did my old husband close the freezer door and make that decision for me?

我真正想要的，是留在那里。

What I really wanted what I really wanted was to stay there.

我想站在冷冻柜门前，永远不把门关上。

I wanted to stay in front of the freezer door and never close it.

我想站在那面镜子前，一边看着我的过去，一边守着我的新生活。

I wanted to stay in front of that mirror to watch my old life and stay in my new life.

我想让那种感觉、那个可怕的决定，永远定格在那里，再也不动。

I wanted to freeze that feeling that horrible decision and never move.

这时候，我才是最开心的。

This is when I am happiest.

也许这唯一一次，我在两个生命里都真正感到过幸福。

Maybe this is the only time I have been happy in both my lives.

我做的每一个选择，都既对又错。

Every decision I could make was both right and wrong.

我可以选走，也可以选留，但无论怎么选，都会爱着一个人，同时伤害另一个人。

I could choose to go or choose to stay, and I would be loving someone and hurting someone else.

两个世界都像完美的镜子，那为什么不活在它们之间呢？

Both worlds were perfect mirrors, so why not live between them?

我们总觉得痛苦很沉重。

We think that pain is heavy.

我们说，痛苦是这世上最重的东西。

We say that pain weighs more than anything in the world.

但在那一刻，也只有在那一刻，我感觉轻如空气。完了。

But in that moment and only in that moment I was as light as air The end.

感谢你收听本期《EasyStoriesInEnglish》。

Thank you for listening to this episode of EasyStoriesInEnglish.

我的‘Story Builders’八周在线Zoom课程仍在开放报名，10月23日开课。

My Story Builders eight week online Zoom course is still open, and it starts on the October 23.

赶紧去 easystoriesinenglish.com/build 报名吧，别等太晚，被困在镜中世界出不来了。

So go and sign up at easystoriesinenglish.com/build before it's too late and you're trapped in the mirror world forever.

哦，天哪。

Oh, no.

到处都是倒影。

Reflections everywhere.

这些镜子要把我吞了。

The mirrors are going to eat me.

哦，再见。

Oh, bye.