crash out queens feat. vanderpump rules' natalie maguire

他依然爱我，但这没关系。

He still loves me, but it's okay.

不过我们现在是朋友了，所以一切都好。

But, like, we're friends now, so it's all good.

我知道他想复合。

He knew he wants back.

我觉得他会喜欢这样。

I think he would love that.

我觉得他现在意识到自己失去了什么了

I think he's realized what he's lost now.

但那又能怎么样呢。

But Oh.

所以我们现在就只是好朋友了。

That's why we're just besties now.

我当时就想，行吧，你能意识到这点还挺好的。

I'm like, well, good for you that you realized that.

我爱你

I love

我也爱你

me too.

是的

Yeah.

对

Yeah.

不过呢

But yeah.

没关系

It's fine.

你会说，换作是我也会这样，真的

You're like, I'd be the same way, bitch.

我知道

I know.

是的。

Yeah.

我本来想陪他度过一下中年危机。

I was trying to be there for the midlife crisis for a sec.

我当时就想，你要我过去吗？

I was like, you want me to come over?

我能为你做点什么？

Like, what can I do for you?

他说就想一个人待着。

I was like, just wanna be alone.

我觉得自己挺无趣的。

I'm like, boring.

是的。

Yeah.

让我也参与一下吧。

Let me in on this.

这对我来说可太让人兴奋了。

Like, this is exciting for me.

没错。

Right.

让我来陪你吧。

Let me be your thing.

我说，我

Like, I

我想看看我的未来。

wanna see my future.

不行。

No.

是的。

Yeah.

真的假的。

Literally.

我当时就想，明白了。

I was like Gotcha.

男人都该去接受心理咨询。

Men all need to be in therapy.

所以。

So

是的。

Yeah.

没错。

True.

确实如此。

True.

对吧？

Right?

你会和你节目里的任何人发展关系吗？

Do you do you, like, get with any with anyone from your show?

是的

Yeah.

别说了

Stop.

是的

Yeah.

我早就知道了

I already know.

哎呀不好

So Uh-oh.

哎呀不好

Uh-oh.

哎呀不好

Uh-oh.

所以你是说，你看过吗？

So you're like, you've watched it?

是的。

Yes.

我还没看过。

I haven't seen

你觉得那是什么？

What do think it is?

我没看过之前的，比如第九季之类的。

Well, I haven't seen a past, like, season nine, season

所以你还没看过我？

Oh, so you haven't watched me.

所以我还是没看。

So I'm still no.

还没呢。

Not yet.

当然，她马上就要到了。

Of course, she's on her way.

是的

Yeah.

我一直在关注

I'm keeping

那些新来的年轻人。

the new kids on the block.

而且我们就像《范德普姆》那样。

And we're like vanderpump

等等。

Wait.

好吧。

Okay.

这是我从《范德普姆》里看到的最主要的那种戏剧性情节。

This is like the main thing that I've seen from vanderpump that was like the drama.

好吧。

Okay.

你是不是已经猜到我要说什么了？

Do you know what I'm gonna say already?

我觉得我大概知道。

Like, I think so.

摩门教妻子的隐秘生活。

Secret lives of mormon wives.

明白了。

Okay.

是的。

Yeah.

那个男人，我不确定他有没有被节目踢出去

The guy I don't know if he got kicked off the

还是没被踢出去。

show or not.

马西亚诺？

Marciano?

马西亚诺。

Marciano.

那是贝拉。

That was Bella.

是的。

Yeah.

那是另一档《范德普》相关的事。

It was a different vanderpump thing.

是的。

Yeah.

我认识他，就是通过《范德普》那个圈子里的接触。

I mean, I know him from just, like, being in the vanderpump world.

是的。

Yeah.

但是

But

对。

Yeah.

当时范德浦圈子里的所有人是不是都在热议这件事，都在讨论到底发生了什么？

Was it, like, a huge discussion between everyone in vanderpump what was going on?

不是这样的。

No.

根本没人在乎马尔西亚诺这个人。

No one gives about Marciano.

那个圈子跟我们根本不是一路的。

That's, like, not our world.

好的。

Okay.

所以你说的是那个叫马西亚诺的人对吧？

So you're, like, Marciano.

我们之前见过他的，至少是在一家餐厅的开业活动上，就是那家叫wolf的店开业的时候，当时我们都去了

Like, we've met him at, like, the, wolf opening, like, at least a restaurant opening, we were, like,

嘿，各位。

hey, guys.

是的。

Yeah.

你们其实啊

You're, like

我们刚来，大家都觉得别给我们钱就行。

Well, we're brand new, so we're all, like, you know, don't pay us.

对啊。

Right.

没错。

Right.

你懂的。

You know?

所以，就是这样。

So, yeah.

我知道这事，因为我特别爱看真人秀节目。

So I do know about that because I'm, like, a big reality TV, like, watcher.

是的。

Yeah.

但其实很多人根本都不知道这事。

But, yeah, a lot of people I don't even think really knew about that.

我可是把《摩门妻子》追完了。

But, like, I'm I'm caught up on Mormon Wife.

对。

Right.

对。

Right.

我们这个剧组里聊得最多的，当然是整个事件的丑闻，毕竟那是节目历史上最大的事。

I think what really, like, is talked about in our cast is obviously, like, the scandal of all of it all because that was, like, the biggest thing that ever happened on the show.

是的。

Yeah.

但我们其实也不在乎。

But we also don't care.

对。

Right.

就是，那件事才是最大的风波。

It's just, like, this was the biggest thing that happened.

我在乎，可我根本没在场。

I care and I wasn't even there.

但也不完全是那样。

But not exactly.

那事儿跟我一点关系都没有。

I have nothing to do with that.

完全不沾边。

No part of that.

是的。

Mhmm.

所以那件事，说白了就是跟我们完全没关系，我们也没在场。

So that was, like, that was a thing that we weren't there for.

那你参加这个爆红的真人秀，感觉怎么样啊？

How was it being on, like, a hit reality show?

我觉得我一直都有冒名顶替综合征，毕竟我在那地方当了好长时间的调酒师，完全和那些大事不沾边。

I think I, like, have impostor syndrome all the time because, like, I just was a bartender there for a long time.

没错。

Yeah.

然后呢，大家就开始聊起我们会不会参加这个节目，我当时完全不敢相信，一直否认。

And then, like, conversations started about, like, us being a part of the show, and I was, like, in full denial.

真的吗？

Really?

我当时就想，这绝对不可能发生。

I was, that's never gonna happen.

对。

Mhmm.

没错。

Right.

我们就是在这里打工的普通人而已。

Like, we just work here.

结果这事居然真成了。

And then it, like, actually happened.

那你参加的时候有没有试镜之类的流程？节目组要求你去试镜吗？

Did you have to like, did they make you go through, like, an audition process or anything?

他们还说，我们 obviously 见过你，而且很喜欢你。

Or they were like, we've obviously seen you and, like, love you.

他们只是想认识一下在丽莎手下工作的人。

They just wanted to get to know everyone that that worked for Lisa.

所以那感觉并不像试镜。

So it wasn't it didn't really feel like auditions.

更像是，你知道的，问你为什么在这儿。

It was like, you know, why are you here?

你跟谁关系好？

Who are you friends with?

你跟谁谈过恋爱？

Who have you dated?

然后他们就把这些线索慢慢拼起来了。

And then they kinda put those puzzle pieces together.

天哪。

Damn.

所以他们是想摸清内幕？

So they were like, they wanted to know the tea?

对啊。

Yeah.

接着就说，好，既然有料，那就放到节目里吧。

And then like, were like, okay, if there's tea here, we're gonna put it on the show.

百分百。

A 100%.

哇哦。

Wow.

这不就说到这儿来了嘛。

Here we are.

他们这是在打你们的主意呢。

They're plotting on you guys.

原来如此。

Okay.

那你可以和我们说说，当时他们觉得一定要放到节目里的，是你的什么瓜吗？

So what would can you tell us what was your tea that they were like, this needs to be on our show?

我觉得那个关于年长男性的八卦，还挺有看点的。

I think I think the older man of it all was a little bit interesting.

他们就说，哦，

They were like, oh,

我去。

shit.

他当时还兼任我们的经理。

He was also like our manager.

所以那会儿的关系挺微妙的，因为我知道有人都在找人力资源部投诉，说是不是他给自己排了最好的班次。

So that was like a tough dynamic because I know people were calling HR, like, is this getting the best shifts?

确实是这样。

Yeah.

整天都是搞特殊待遇。

It's favoritism all day long.

我就想，也许我就是个调酒师里的佼佼者吧。

And I'm like, like, maybe I'm just the best bartender.

这跟我谈恋爱有什么关系啊？

Like, what does it have to do with my relationship?

调酒师技术好，排班自然就好。

Like, the best bartenders get the best shifts.

别来烦我。

Like, leave me alone.

没错。

Right.

所以当时这事挺复杂的。

So there was a lot there.

而且啊，在服务行业工作，人际关系真的很乱。

And, like, working in the service industry, it can get, like, so incestuous.

你也知道的，好多人都和同一个对象交往过。

So, like, you know, some people have dated the same people.

说起来这事还挺有意思的。

Like, that was interesting.

我有个朋友之前偶然见过我的前任一次，都没当回事，那还是在我和我前任认识之前。

So a friend of mine had, like, seen my ex before me very casually.

对她来说，这段关系可不是随便玩玩的。

For her, it wasn't casual.

其实具体情况得看是哪天了。

It actually depends on the day.

就比如说，有时候对她来说那只是随便玩玩，具体什么情况还要看当时身边都有谁。

Like, some days for her, it was casual, and it depends who was there.

有些时候就是随便处处，还有些时候，他俩又像是在谈恋爱一样。

Some days, it's casual, and some days, they were in love.

我其实心里想着，你总得选一个吧，但很明显，根本做不到。

I'm like, want you to pick one, but, like, you can't, obviously.

这件事我们都聊了好多年了。

We've been talking about this for years.

所以这事说起来也挺复杂的。

So that was probably something.

之后嘛，我也说不清了。

And then, I don't know.

我感觉我现在的工作里，每周的状况都不一样

I mean, at my work, like, every single week is different.

几乎每周都有不同的人在闹矛盾

Like, different people are fighting every single week.

我是认真的。

I'm not kidding.

等一下。

Wait.

哦，对了。

And Oh.

听说你被停职了。

Heard that you got suspended.

是的。

I did.

这太不公平了。

That was unfair.

丽莎，你说说看。

Lisa, tell the way to

谈谈这件事。

say about it.

不是的。

No.

确实，被停职这件事我挺遗憾的，但我当时生气是天经地义的，我不会为此后悔。

Like, I'm sorry that I got suspended, but I'm not sorry that I was mad.

你刚才说什么来着？

What was yeah.

给我讲讲到底发生了什么事。

Explain what happened.

就是说，我真的和前任分手了。

Like, literally, ex and I broke up.

他把我拉黑了。

He blocked me.

我家人来见过那位先生，他对我的家人特别好。

My family came in to sir, and he was so nice to my family.

而且你知道吗，他居然知道我爸爸爱喝什么酒。

And, like, he knows what my dad likes to drink.

所以他当时的服务做得特别周到

So he was just, like, giving the best service.

然后我就觉得，这太离谱了啊，明明我都被他拉黑了

And I'm, like, this is so crazy because like I'm blocked.

对。

Yeah.

全是装的。

Fake.

就是这么回事。

Exactly.

谢谢你理解我。

Thank you.

然后我就觉得，这事儿根本一点都不好笑。

So I was like, don't this is funny.

你现在都已经把我拉黑了，结果我们居然还能...

Like, you gonna block me now if we're all

关系不错的那种？

good?

对啊。

Right.

当时我俩的对话差不多就这些了。

And that was really the conversation.

我觉得我平时嗓门比较大，别人总觉得我像个随时会炸的定时炸弹，至少以前大家是这么看我的。

And I think I'm just loud and, like, people are I'm like a ticking time bomb or something or at least I used to be.

所以现在我变得小心多了，以前我一到场，有些人就会反应过来‘哦，娜塔莉来了’，和以前完全不一样了。

Now I'm, like, more careful because I used to walk into certain people used to be like, okay, natalie's here.

现在我到哪都怕，总担心大家会认出我来。

Like, everyone's I'm scared.

都防备着我。

On guard.

我的天呐。

Oh my god.

包括老板在内。

Including the owner.

我们那儿也有点类似的情况。

We have like we have like a little bit of the same thing.

有人来参加节目时会有点紧张。

People are like scared when they come on the show.

真的吗？

Really?

是的。

Yeah.

对。

Yeah.

为什么？

Why?

有些人确实是这样。

Some of them are.

因为我们一直想把这件事做好。

Because we've We have try to get that done.

对的。

We've Yeah.

就是因为……你说的完全说到我心坎里了，这就是我亲身经历的事。

Because we've gotten You're living my truth.

说到这个，我们倒是还没被封杀过，但我们遇到过列车取消的状况。

We've gotten well, we haven't gotten canceled, but we've had, like, canceled trains.

我们之前就往假人的眼睛里塞过东西呢。

We've, like, shoved things in mannequin's eyes.

就是说啊

Like

听着明明挺有意思的啊

This just sounds like fun

就是小女生都会有的小心思嘛

Normal girl shit.

没错。

Exactly.

大家都得放松一下。

Everyone needs to relax.

有一些

There's some

安静点。

Pipe down.

对啊。

Right.

每个人都能听到这段对话，但说实话，我觉得我声音也没多大。

Everyone so everyone kinda sees this conversation that, like I mean, I don't think it was that loud for me.

就是平常的音量而已。

It was, like, usual volume.

可大家老说，Natalie，你怎么不去坐那边呢？

But, you know, everyone's like, natalie, why don't you go sit?

我当时就想说，你凭什么来指挥我？

And I'm like, why don't you not tell me what to do?

可不就是这么回事嘛。

And then it exactly.

行吧，那我坐就是了

Like, okay.

结果现在反倒催着我必须赶紧坐下了

Now you really need to go sit.

我当时就说，闭嘴吧。

And I was like, literally shut the up.

然后其他人也插话了，说你不能那样说话。

So then other people start getting involved, like, you're not gonna talk like that.

我说，不行。

And I'm like, no.

我现在正在聊天呢。

I'm having a conversation right now.

是的

Yeah.

我根本就没插手

Like, I had nothing

跟你一点关系都没有

to do with you.

没错

Exactly.

那你干脆走开好了

So why don't you just walk away?

对

Uh-huh.

我 basically 被管理层联手针对，然后他们就说，那你现在得走了

I just basically got ganged up on by management, and then they're like, well, now you have to leave.

我说，你们

I'm like, you.

你。

You.

你。

You.

我不会走。

I'm not leaving.

这是我的餐厅。

This is my restaurant.

对。

Right.

我在这儿上班。

I work here.

这是我的家。

This is my house.

这是我的餐厅。

This is my restaurant.

所以我真的是被赶出来了。

So then I really did get, like, kicked out.

哦，是啊。

Oh, yeah.

你后来是怎么回去的？

How'd you get back in?

我没回去。

I didn't.

真的吗？

No?

真的。

No.

我当时特别生气。

I was really angry.

等等。

Wait.

所以你现在还在被停学吗？

So are you still suspended to this day?

没有。

No.

只停了一周。

It was just a week.

哦，好的。

Oh, okay.

不过说实话，他们问我怎么回事的时候，我就说，这不就是给我放了个假吗。

But honestly So they said, like, what's happening, I was like, you just gave me a vacation.

可不是嘛。

Right.

对的。

Right.

谢谢。

Thank you.

能暂时躲开你们所有人，休息一下，我可太开心了。

I'm so happy to have a break from all your Yeah.

可不是嘛。

Exactly.

所以那一周过得挺舒服的。

So it was great.

不过我还是道歉了，结果他们说其实更希望我那次私下沟通，不要在公开场合聊。

But I was like, I apologize for apparently, they were like, we would have rather you done that conversation outside.

就是没法在酒吧里休假罢了。

Maybe not at the bar.

毕竟那时候店里真的有客人，对啊。

Because everyone like, there was actual customers and Right.

但是话说回来，这不行啊，你总不能

But like, that's gonna like, you can't

这又不是过家家。

This is real life.

对的

Yeah.

话说回来，那些顾客说不定还看得挺起劲呢

Mean, they probably were enjoying the show.

我们可是在西好莱坞啊。

Like, we're in West Hollywood.

别装得好像从没见过人说脏话，或是起过争执一样。

Like, don't act like you haven't seen, like, a curse word or like a confrontation.

对的。

Right.

那他们是觉得镜头拍到这个不好吗？

But they didn't like it for the camera?

我们当时还没开始录节目呢。

We weren't filming yet.

所以我还侥幸觉得，好在这事出在那之前——结果转头他们就去调监控录像了。

So I was kinda like, at least this happened before, and then they pulled security footage.

所以呢。

So Yeah.

没关系。

That's okay.

反正都拍到了。

Got it either way.

反正都拍到了。

They got it either way.

监控里拍到了，就是我，真的？

CCTV and it's like me, like Really?

在吧台上面。

Over the bar.

是的。

Yeah.

但嘛，随它吧。

But, like, whatever.

所以我道歉了啊，毕竟我真的没办法，必须得这么做。

So I apologized because I, like, literally had to.

我就说，我为在餐厅里大闹一场的事道歉。

I'm like, I apologize for causing a scene in the restaurant.

丽莎当时就问我，要是你在餐厅里看到一个女生当众大喊大叫，你会怎么想？

Lisa was like, what would you think if you saw some girl yelling in the middle of the restaurant?

我说，我多半会觉得她疯了吧，不过话又说回来

I said, I probably think she was crazy, but

我就是好奇，她当时为啥要大喊啊？

I mean, what made her yell?

我都搞不懂我这是怎么了

Like, why I have

他们肯定会大喊，哦，搞什么啊，

been would like, oh, like boo,

把他赶出去。

get him out.

但要是看到个女孩大喊大叫，我肯定会想，她到底为啥这样啊？

But if feels like a girl yelling, I'd like, well, why

我会走过去说，是她自己说的。

is I'd walk up and I'd be like, well, she said so.

我觉得

I feel

特别被误解了。

very misunderstood.

我宁愿让管理层出面，直接把她解封，让大家都能好好过个晚上。

Would've rather my management than like, palette, can you just unblock her and then like, guys could just have a great night?

对。

Right.

问题就在你这儿。

Like, you're the problem.

把她解封吧。

Unblock her.

是的。

Yeah.

我不是那个阻拦的人。

Not I'm a blocker.

他干嘛这么说？

Why was he saying that

他看到你拉黑她了？

he saw you blocked?

我不太确定。

I'm not sure.

他这个人啊，就是不喜欢处理这些事。

He he's very, like, you know, doesn't like to deal with things.

就是那种人，对吧。

You know, those kind of guys Yeah.

专门躲着问题不解决。

That are just like avoiding problems.

是的。

Yeah.

对。

Yeah.

没错。

Yeah.

所以我们当时只是在回避。

So we were just avoiding at the time.

但后来我就想，哦，你今天倒想跟我爸做最好的朋友了？

But then I was like, oh, you wanna be best friends today and with my dad.

跟我爸。

And with my dad.

就是说，而且

Like, And

跟我爸。

with my dad.

你秃顶了。

And you're bald.

你真的挺像他的。

You're really He

他有一阵子特别想学大卫·贝克汉姆，剃了个光头。

was trying he had a phase where he was like, I I wanna be like David Beckham and he was doing like the buzz cut.

那时候挺新鲜的。

It was new.

那股劲儿还挺有范儿的。

It was a vibe.

当时就是觉得好奇怪。

It was like a Why

他怎么这么多变化？

is he having so many

五十岁的人了，怎么还这么多变化？

phases at 50?

我觉得，到了这个年纪，人就该认清自己了。

Like, I feel like it's like the time you're supposed to like know you.

对。

Yeah.

我的意思是，

That is like I mean,

我觉得那些变化并不是个人本质上的改变。

I feel like they weren't like personal changes.

只是发型变了而已。

They were just like hair changes.

他当时就像她说的那样，

He was like She's like

我没觉得他有什么大变化。

not too much on my man.

我当时就想，

I was like,

是的。

yeah.

换一个新发型，撑个几个月。

Rock a different hairstyle for a couple months.

因为男人的头发长得快。

Because with men, like, the hair grows back fast.

对。

Right.

随你吧。

Whatever.

你可以觉得他丑一个月，之后就无所谓了。

You can think he's ugly for, a month and then it's fine.

他一直留着胡子，我觉得这才是最重要的。

He always kept his facial hair, which, like, I think was the most important.

我从来没见过这样。

I've never seen that.

络腮胡和胡须啊。

Facial hair.

我特别喜欢男生留胡子。

I love facial hair.

我也特别喜欢留胡子的造型。

I love facial hair too.

对的。

Yeah.

我要是和一个男生在一起，回家后面部皮肤会又红又刺痛，状态特别差。

I'll, like, hook up with a guy and go home with a completely raw red face.

朋友们还会调侃我，说我看起来这一天过得挺不错呢。

My friends are like, you look like you had a good day.

什么？

What?

那时候你确实长痘痘了啊。

They did give you pimples.

我之前听说胡子会让人长痘痘

I've heard that, like, beards can give pimples.

我倒是没长过痘痘这种情况

I I feel like I haven't had the pimple thing.

其实是我的皮肤遭不住，真的会变得特别干。

It's more like my skin gets lit like, literally so dry.

害，一言难尽。

Wow.

我只能涂点保湿霜，等着慢慢消下去

I have to just, like, moisturize and wait.

这都是甜蜜的烦恼啊

Good problems to have.

大概是吧。

I guess.

对。

Yeah.

但我觉得留点胡茬挺有魅力的。

But I think I think scruff is sexy.

我不是说那种浓密的大胡子。

Not I don't think, like, full beard.

是的。

Yeah.

我觉得胡茬看起来很有吸引力。

I don't like scruff is hot.

对。

Yeah.

那种感觉更成熟一些。

It's, like, mature.

对。

Yeah.

对。

Yeah.

我喜欢棕色。

I like brown.

对。

Yeah.

对。

Yeah.

对。

Yeah.

我明白。

I see it.

我看到了。

I it.

好的。

Okay.

我想问问关于谢恩的事。

I wanna ask about Shane.

好的。

Okay.

糟了。

Uh-oh.

我刚才在休息室跟他视频通话。

I was just FaceTiming him in the green room.

等一下。

Wait.

你得好好说说谢恩这边的情况。

So go go into, like, an explanation on the situation with Shane.

行。

Okay.

谢恩是我最好的朋友。

Shane is, like, my best friend.

是的。

Yeah.

哦，天哪。

Oh, shit.

是那种比普通好朋友更亲密的关系吗？

Is it, like, best friend plus more?

对。

Yeah.

好的。

Okay.

在这儿坦诚相待没关系的。

It's okay to just be honest here.

对。

Yeah.

事情其实更复杂。

It it is more.

我们不只是朋友，但你知道的，当最好的朋友之间又多了层关系时，情况真的挺复杂的。

Like, we're not just friends, but at the same time, like, you know, it's really complicated when you're best friends and then you, like, add more.

而且他本身是个特别感性、心思细腻的人，从来不想伤害任何人，现在他正专注于自我成长的路

So and he's, like, very emotional and sensitive and, like, doesn't wanna hurt people and is, like, kinda going on his own journey.

他把自己的康复之路放在第一位，因为他已经戒酒戒毒了，得把这件事放在首位

Like, his recovery journey is very, like, very much his priority because he's sober.

原来是这样啊。

Oh, okay.

他现在每天都要开会。

So he goes to meetings every single day.

他一直在努力成为最好的自己，比如坚持健身，好好照顾自己。对。

He's, like, trying to be the best version of himself possible, which he's always, like, working out, like, taking good care of himself Yeah.

在朋友面前也是这样。

Around friends.

他就是个特别好人。

Like, he's just a really good person.

是的。

Yeah.

而且他工作特别努力。

And he also works really hard.

他有很强的责任感和上进心，这其实特别好。

Like, he has such a strong work ethic and drive, which is, like, also, you know, really good.

对。

Mhmm.

是的。

Yeah.

这家伙根本坐不住。

Like, that guy can't sit still.

所以。

So

不过，这种特质确实挺好的。

That's a good, like, that's a good quality to have though.

因为如果一个人整天无所事事，那他到底想追求什么呢？

Because when they're, like, just bummy and, like, not doing anything, it's like, what do you want in life?

完全没什么人生追求。

Like, you have no aspirations.

他很清楚自己想要什么。

He definitely knows what he wants.

我觉得更像是他现在还没法对别人敞开心扉，展现自己脆弱的一面。

I think it's more like he he cannot get vulnerable with somebody yet.

就是……是不是他心里害怕了？

It's it's too He's scared?

没错。

Yeah.

他特别害怕自己会失恋，真心错付。

He's he's really scared of getting his heart broken.

他以前有没有经历过失恋？

Has he been heartbroken in the past?

我觉得他有过，而且说实话，他已经很多年没认真谈过恋爱了。

I think he has, but also he hasn't seriously dated for literally years.

哦。

Oh.

好几年了。

Like years.

特别是，我觉得，现在他清醒之后。

Especially, I think, like, now that he's sober.

是的。

Yeah.

所以我觉得，他把爱和那种特别不稳定、特别难搞的感觉联系在一起了。

So I think I think he's associated love with just, like, it being so volatile and difficult.

所以他完全没准备好，我也不能逼着谁去准备好。

So he's just like so not ready and I can't make someone be ready.

你是不是希望他其实准备好了？

Do you wish he was?

我觉得是吧。

I think so.

肯定是这样的，没错。

Like obviously, yeah.

但与此同时，我也没办法逼着一个还没准备好的人做好准备。

But at the same time, I don't I can't force someone to be ready that's not.

所以我觉得自己挺擅长把事情分开看待的，总能告诉自己没事的。

So I think I'm really good at like compartmentalizing and being like, it's okay.

我现在其实也不需要急着谈恋爱。

I don't really need like a relationship right now.

其实现在的状态我还挺满意的。

Like, I'm kind of good with how things are.

我们现在的友情特别深厚。

Like, we have a really close friendship.

我们从来不会吵架。

We never fight.

有时候我们就一起回家。

Sometimes, like, we just go home together.

他多大了？

How old is he?

三十三岁。

33.

哦，

Oh,

明白了。

okay.

太好了。

Yay.

太好了。

Yay.

等等。

So wait.

谢恩，能给我们看看他的照片吗？

Can we see a photo of him, Shane?

是啊。

Mhmm.

他长得挺可爱的吧？

Is he cutie?

对啊。

Yeah.

特别可爱。

Really cute.

她说，我怎么可能选个不好看的。

She's like, I wouldn't have anyone ugly.

没错。

Yeah.

以前有过。

Have before.

我以前做过那种聊性格的约会。

I've done, like, the personality date.

那件事没谈成吗？

She's Did that not go well?

还行吧。

It was fine.

你是说那天你直接走了？

Did that were you crashing out in that

还是没有？

or no?

没有。

No.

我那时候就觉得，就是随便聊聊而已。

I think the whole time I was just like, it's casual.

你懂的。

You know?

在大学的时候，我挺愿意给陌生人机会的。

Like, I I didn't mind giving people a chance in college.

哦，这样啊。

Oh, okay.

我当时就想，你喜欢我？

Like, I was like, you like me?

你想不想一起做点什么？

You wanna you wanna do something?

就是说，

Like,

当然可以。

sure.

没问题。

Sure.

我心想，我干嘛要拒绝呢？

I was like, why why would I say no?

对啊。

Yeah.

但现在我就只做自己的事了。

But now I just, do my own thing.

上大学。

College.

哦，这人是你男朋友吧。

Oh, this This is like your man.

等等。

Wait.

等等。

Wait.

等等。

Wait.

为什么？

Because What?

我和

Me and

我朋友可不是长那样。

my friends don't look like that.

我知道。

I know.

我也不长那样。

I don't look

可不是嘛。

like yeah.

他非杀了我不可。

He's gonna kill me.

我跟朋友从不这样。

I don't do that with my friends.

对。

Yeah.

不行。

No.