NEVER STOP FIGHTING - David Goggins Motivational Speech | Morning Motivation

这事儿挺有意思的，真的。

It's funny, man.

大家都想知道我怎么总能保持干劲。

People want to know how I'm always motivated.

其实就是那些没人看见的努力，而你刚才说的完全对。

It's the unseen work, which you just said is a true statement.

那些都是别人给你的虚假多巴胺刺激，老兄。

Those are false dopamine hits that people are giving you, man.

那根本没什么可信度。

There's no belief in that.

真正的动力来自团队合作和真实的多巴胺——比如凌晨一两点，我一个人在健身房练到筋疲力尽。

These are team work, dopamine, like I'm out running at 02:00 in the morning, 01:00 in the morning in the gym, long sessions by myself.

你这才叫真本事。

You that's real.

我能随时提取出真正有益的多巴胺，就这么简单。

How I'm able to just extract dopamine, the good dopamine whenever I want.

老天，我这辈子99%的时间都是一个人练过来的。

Man, I've trained 99% of my life alone.

从来没人拍过我的肩膀鼓励我。

No one pat me on the back.

所有努力都是我一个人完成的。

I did all of the work alone.

虽然我现在对自己还是要求很高，但我知道自己付出了什么。

And while I'm still hard on myself, I know what I did.

所以当别人遇到低谷时，总在问：谁来扛船？谁来撑场面？

So whenever times get bad for people, all this, who's gonna carry the boats and what?

这才是真东西。

That's real.

我讨厌别人只因为那个形象认识我。

I hate that people know me for that guy.

因为那个形象根本不是我每天的状态，他们看到我，就想要那种能量。

Because that guy is not every fucking day like when they see me they want that energy.

那不是我每天的状态。

That's not me every day.

我需要的时候能立刻调动起来，因为一个人训练，我独自生活了这么多年，忍受着这种痛苦，但最终我还是靠自己走了出来。

I can extract it immediately when I need to because when you train alone, and I lived alone for so many years in this misery and you're able to get out by yourself.

我能把自己逼到一种极度投入、充满使命感的状态，那种感觉是我一个人就能获得的，根本不需要任何人。

I can take myself to such a level of real, real passion and purpose in like, the feeling I get is something I can't expect by my I don't need anyone.

所以人们才来找我，想从我这儿获得动力。

That's why that's why people come to me to motivate them.

没人能给我动力。

No one can motivate me.

我脑子里装满了自我激励的回忆，每当我低落的时候，就会提醒自己：撑住，别怂。

I have a resume full of the motivation that whenever I'm down like, oh, hang on, motherfucker.

你知道真相是什么。

Oh, you know, you know the truth.

你知道那些黑暗的深渊，知道那些盘旋在头顶的恶魔，你都清楚。

You know that you you know the darkness of the fucking dungeons and the fucking demons that fly, you know.

从那以后，你就明白了，你确实经历过。

And then from there, it's like, okay, you were there.

你心里清楚。

You know this.

那时候没人帮你背背包、搬船、抬木头，没人进去帮你。

There was no one there to pick up the rucksack, pick up the boat, to pick up the log, to go in there.

全靠你自己。

It was you.

就是你自己。

It was you.

没人给你发过什么许可证，说你可以在二月、三月，凌晨两点二十准时回去。

There was no patent for going back at March at at February at February at 02:20.

不，那都是你自己的坚持。

No, that was you.

那些从我心底、在黑暗中涌出来的力量。

So those things that come out of me that extract from me in the darkness.

大家都在找人夸一夸自己。

People are looking for that pat on the back.

这夸奖在哪呢？

Where is it?

哦，我不需要这个。

Oh, I don't need it.

因为我做的都是没人看见的活儿。

Because what I've done is in the unseen work.

我造出了弗兰肯斯坦。

I built Frankenstein.

所以每回她发火，大卫·戈金斯就骂：你本来就没人在乎，混蛋。

So whenever she gets nasty, David Goggins goes, you had nobody anyway, motherfucker.

所以现在，我全靠自己琢磨出来了。

So see, I'm taught myself for now.

这就是我。

That's me.

这反而让我更想搞砸一切。

That fires me to fuck up.

这简直快把我逼疯了。

That makes me nuts.

你本来就没人在乎，混蛋。

You had nobody anyway, motherfucker.

你身边根本没人。

Around you.

根本没有什么团队。

There was no team.

只有你一个人。

It was you.

没人给你制定减肥计划，也没人每天早上叫醒你，说你做得到，你可以变得更好，给你打气。

There was no weight loss program or mom and dad waking you up saying you can do it, you can be better trying to build belief.

你是在一无所有的时候，自己建立起信念的。

You built belief when you had nothing.

跌到谷底了。

Rock bottom.

这都是你造成的。

You did that.

所以每当我遇到难关，真相就浮出水面了。

So as times get hard for me, the truth comes out.

我的真相，强得离谱。

And my truth is powerful as fuck.

这是真的。

It's real.

摸得着，看得见。

It's tangible.

我能感受到。

I feel it.

我说出来的时候，它就从脑子里冒出来了。

It comes out of my brain as I speak about it.

我为了站在这里，重新经历了生命中每一个黑暗的时刻。

I'm reliving every single dark moment of my life to be here.

这就是别人无法理解的地方。

So that is what people don't get.

真正推动大卫·戈金斯的，是那些没人看见的努力。

That is what motivates David Goggins is the unseen work.

他们需要别人的鼓励。

Needs that pat on the back.

他们需要一个训练伙伴。

They need that training partner.

他们需要一个负责督促的人。

Need that accountability coach.

没错，他们一样都没有。

Oh yes, and neither do they.

但这些其实只是我们被训练得相信自己需要的东西。

But it's what we've trained ourselves to believe that we need.

大脑是世界上最强有力的武器。

The brain is the most powerful weapon in the world.

真不可思议，一个小时候并不聪明的孩子。

And it's crazy how a kid that wasn't real smart.

我只能转向内心。

I was forced to go only internal.

外界的一切都得放下。

External had to go away.

外面的世界，真的得彻底远离。

The external external world world had had to to go go away.

彻底远离。

Away.

我活得如此深入自己的内心。

And living so deep inside myself.

那时，只有我和我的大脑。

It was me in this brain.

然后慢慢搞清楚这东西是怎么运作的。

And figuring out how this thing works.

其实很多人都在做同样的事。

And it's so many people are doing exactly that.

吃这个补品，那个补品。

The supplements to this to that.

我同意，确实有帮助。

I agree it helps.

但只要你真正了解了自己的大脑，几乎就没什么能难倒你了。

But once you figure out your your brain, you become unstoppable to almost anything.

是的，你终究战胜不了死亡。

Yeah, you can't beat death.

你什么都做不了，就是做不了。

You can't whatever, whatever.

你的大脑太神奇了。

Your brain's amazing.

一旦你给它输入正确的对话、合适的心理营养、恰当的心理补充，还有在对的时间配上正确的内心对话，以及你过去真正做过的那些事作为实证。

Once you feed it the right conversation, the right mental nutrients, the right mental supplements, the right the right internal dialogue, at the right time, with the right hit with the right proof of what you've done in the past.

再把这些精准地传送到对应的神经回路里，兄弟，你简直所向披靡，真的所向披靡。

And you send that right to the right circuit, dude, you're a beast, A beast.

但再说一遍，光靠看书是没用的。

But once again, you just can't read about it.

你不能光坐在那儿当个理论家。

You can't sit back and be a theorist.

你必须成为实践者。

You have to be a practitioner.

而正是在实践中，这些才真正成为无可辩驳的证据。

And in that practice is where that becomes proof positive.

我说的是，天啊，大卫·戈金斯简直让我震撼到不行。

What I'm saying is like, God, David Goggins is blowing my mind.

这到底是什么东西？

What is this?

他一点都不疯。

He's not crazy.

太多人了。

And so many people.

很多人真正听懂了我的话。

A lot of people have listened to me the right way.

他们回来告诉我，我完全认同。

And they come back and they're like, I'm totally on board.

我真的做到了。

I it happened.

真的发生了。

It happened.

只要你继续做下去，这事就会一直持续下去，但关键就在这儿。

I'm like, it'll keep going, man, if you keep doing it, but that is it, man.

根本没有阳光。

There's no sun.

没有荣耀可言。

There's no glory.

也没有什么甜头。

There's no carrot.

更谈不上胜利。

There's no victory.

但这一切都融在了一起。

But there is all of it in one.

就是很难跟人说清楚，真的。

Just can't explain it real well to people man.

但你在终点得到的，是另一个你。

But what you get the other end is something that you're not.

你找到了自己。

You're found.

从此再也不迷茫了。

You're never lost anymore.

这并不意味着这段旅程会轻松。

Doesn't mean the journey is easy.

并不会变得更容易，但你始终能找到自己。

Doesn't get any easier, but you're always found.

我当时正承受着严重的压力。

I was suffering from toxic stress.

我经历的那种身体和情感上的虐待，已被证实会对幼儿产生多种负面影响，因为在童年早期，大脑发育得非常迅速。

The type of physical and emotional abuse I was exposed to has been proven to have a range of side effects on young children because in our early years, the brain grows and develops so rapidly.

如果在那几年里，你父亲是个心肠歹毒、一心要毁掉家里所有人的家伙，压力就会急剧飙升。

If during those years, your father is an evil mother hell bent on destroying everyone in his house, stress spikes.

当这些压力高峰频繁出现时，你就能在峰值之间画出一条线。

And when those spikes occur frequently enough, you can draw a line across the peaks.

那就是你新的常态。

That's your new baseline.

它让孩子们长期处于应激状态。

It puts kids in a permanent fight or flight mode.

当你身处危险时，战斗或逃跑反应其实很有用，它能让你爆发力量去对抗或迅速逃离危险。

Fight or flight can be a great tool when you're in danger because it amps you up to battle through or sprint from trouble.

但这种状态绝不能成为生活的常态。

But it's no way to live.

我不是那种喜欢用科学解释一切的人，但事实就是事实。

I'm not the type of guy to try to explain everything with science, but facts are facts.

我读到过，有些儿科医生认为，有毒压力对孩子的伤害甚至超过小儿麻痹症或脑膜炎。

I've read that some pediatricians believe toxic stress does more damage to kids than polio or meningitis.

我亲身经历过，它会导致学习障碍和社交焦虑，因为医生说，它会抑制语言能力和记忆力，哪怕是最聪明的学生，也很难记住已经学过的东西。

I know firsthand that it leads to learning disabilities and social anxiety because according to doctors, it limits language development and memory, which makes it difficult for even the most gifted student to recall what they have already learned.

从长远来看，像我这样在虐待环境中长大的孩子，成年后患临床抑郁症、心脏病、肥胖和癌症的风险会升高，更别提吸烟、酗酒和药物滥用这些问题了。

Looking at the long game, when kids like me grow up, they face an increased risk for clinical depression, heart disease, obesity and cancer, not to mention smoking, alcoholism and drug abuse.

在虐待家庭中长大的孩子，未成年时被逮捕的概率高出53%。

Those raised in abusive households have an increased probability of being arrested as a juvenile by 53.

他们成年后犯下暴力犯罪的可能性也高出38%。

Their odds of committing a violent crime as an adult are increased by thirty eight percent.

我就是那种大家常听的、典型的例子。

I was the poster child of that generic term we've all heard before.

我妈妈从来不是在养一个混混。

At risk youth, my mother wasn't the one raising a thug.

看看这些数据，真相一目了然。

Look at the numbers and it's clear.

如果真有人把我引上歧路，那一定是特鲁纳斯·戈金斯。

If anyone put me on a destructive path, it was Trunnas Goggins.

我没在团体治疗里待多久，也没吃利他林。

I didn't stay in group therapy for long and I didn't take Ritalin either.

第二次治疗结束后，妈妈来接我，我坐在她车的前座，眼神空洞得像望穿了千英里。

My mom picked me up after my second session and I sat in the front seat of her car wearing a thousand yard stare.

妈妈，我不去了，我对她说。

Mom, I'm not going back, I said.

那些男孩都疯了。

These boys are crazy.

她同意了。

She agreed.

但我依然是一个受过伤害的孩子。

But I was still a damaged kid.

虽然目前已有经过验证的有效方法，来教导和管理那些遭受过严重心理创伤的孩子。

And while there are proven interventions on the best way to teach and manage kids who suffer from toxic stress.

可以说，Ms.

It's fair to say that Ms.

D 没收到那些备忘录。

D didn't get those memos.

我不能怪她因为无知而犯错。

I can't blame her for her own ignorance.

80 年代的科学认知可没现在这么明确。

The science wasn't nearly as clear in the 1980s as it is now.

我只知道凯瑟琳修女和迪伊老师一样，都在一线跟那些有缺陷的孩子打交道。

All I know is Sister Catherine toiled in the trenches with the same malformed kid that Miss Dee dealt with.

但她始终保持着高要求，没有让沮丧情绪淹没自己。

But she maintained high expectations and didn't let her frustration overwhelm her.

她的想法是，看，每个人学习的方式都不一样，我们会找出适合你的学习方法。

She had the mindset of, look, everybody learns in a different way, and we're going to figure out how you learn.

她推断出我需要反复练习，需要通过不同方式反复解决同样的问题才能学会。

She deduced that I needed repetition, that I needed to solve the same problems over and over again in a different way to learn.

她知道这需要时间。

And she knew that took time.

D老师

Ms.

她一心只盯着效率。

D was all about productivity.

她的态度就是要么跟上，要么走人。

She was saying keep up or get out.

与此同时，我觉得自己被逼到了死角。

Meanwhile, I felt backed into a corner.

我知道，如果再不有点进步，迟早会被打发到那个永久的黑名单里去。

I knew that if I didn't show some improvement, would eventually be shipped out to that special black hole for good.

所以我找到了办法。

So I found a solution.

我开始拼命作弊。

I started cheating my ass off.

学习太难了，尤其是对我这种脑子来说。

Studying was hard, especially with my brain.

但我作弊可真有一套。

But I was a damn good cheat.

我抄同学的作业，考试时偷看邻座的答案。

I copied friends homework and scan my neighbors work during tests.

连那些不影响成绩的标准化考试，我也抄答案。

I even copied the answers on the standardized tests that didn't have any impact on my grades.

还真管用。

It worked.

我不断上升的考试成绩让D老师满意了。

My rising test scores placated Ms.

我妈也不再接到学校的投诉电话了。

D and my mother stopped getting calls from school.

我以为自己解决了问题，但其实我只是选择了最容易的路，反而制造了新的麻烦。

I thought I'd solved a problem when really I was creating new ones by taking the path of least resistance.

这种应对方式让我永远在学校学不到任何东西，也永远追不上进度，最终让我离挂科退学越来越近。

My coping mechanism confirmed that I would never learn squat at school and that I would never catch up, which pushed me closer toward a flunked out fate.

好在巴西的那些年，我年纪太小，根本意识不到自己马上要在家乡这种乡下地方遭遇什么样的偏见。

The saving grace of those early years in Brazil was that I was way too young to understand the kind of prejudice I would soon face in my new hick hometown.

当你成为唯一的不同类时，你很容易就被推到边缘，被人怀疑、忽视，还会被那些无知的人欺负和虐待。

Whenever you're the only one of your kind, you're in danger of being pushed toward the margins, suspected and disregarded, bullied and mistreated by ignorant people.

生活就是这样，尤其是那时候。

That's just the way life is, especially back then.

等现实狠狠给了我一记重击的时候，我的人生已经彻底变成了一碗心灵鸡汤。

And by the time that reality kicked me in the throat, my life had already become a full fledged you fortune cookie.

每次打开，看到的都是同一句话。

Whenever I cracked it open, I got the same message.

你生来就是要失败的。

You were born to fail.

圣诞节后五周，我明显感觉到整个人生都变了。

Five weeks after Christmas, it had become obvious that my whole life had changed.

《不能伤害我》出版后带来的意外关注和名声，既让我谦卑，也让我迷失方向。

The unexpected attention and notoriety that came with and followed the release of can't hurt me was as humbling as it was disorienting.

几十年来，我一直在公众视线之外默默努力，如今却突然被聚光灯照着。

After decades of grinding in the shadows outside the public eye, I was now spotlit.

我向来觉得，边缘地带才是我最自在的地方。

I'd always felt most at home in the margins.

在军队服役时，别人都还没醒，我就已经开始最长的跑步和负重行军了。

During my military career, I'd go on my longest runs and rucks before anyone else woke up.

别人辛苦工作一天或一周后去放松或聚会，我却留在屋里研究潜水表、反复整理降落伞，或者在健身房练到深夜。

While others were relaxing or partying after a hard day or week of work, I stayed in to study my dive tables, pack and repack my parachute, or run and grind in the gym deep into the night.

我私下做的每一件事，都是为了让自己变得更好、更充实。

Everything I did on my own time was for my own personal fulfillment and growth.

我绝对不是为了博取关注才这么做的。

I damn sure didn't do it for attention.

但很多人总是误解我。

Yet I was often misunderstood.

我背负着一座像世界一样沉重的巨石，只为了逃出那场紧追不舍的黑暗。

I was carrying a boulder as big as the world on my back just trying to get to the other side of the darkness that was chasing me down.

我特别害怕，一旦停下进步的脚步，稍微松懈一下，那些自卑和骨子里的懒惰就会卷土重来。

I was terrified that if I stopped getting better, I gave myself a break from any of it, all my insecurities and innate laziness would get the drop on me again.

每当我感到身体疲惫、精神耗尽的时候，我就会想起那个24岁、胖乎乎的自己，正冲我咧嘴笑。

Anytime I felt physically exhausted or mentally zapped, I pictured that 24 year old fat ass glaring at me with a big smile on his face.

那笑容在说：我还在呢，贱人。

A smile that said, I'm still here, bitch.

我就是你真实的样子，我永远不会离开。

I am who you really are, and I'm not going anywhere.

我把每一天都看作是清理大脑里那些负面情绪的机会，渐渐对思维的力量着了迷——它既能帮我们，也能拖我们后腿。

I looked at each day as an opportunity to mind the negativity that had colonized my brain and became fascinated by the power of the mind and how it can work for us and against us.

人的情绪和外界环境总像旋转木马一样轮转，让人迷失方向，耗尽专注力、动力和韧性，而这些本来就像潮水一样有起有落。

Often it falls prey to the merry-go-round of emotions and situational conditions that cause confusion and sap us of focus, force and fortitude, all of which have a natural tendency to ebb and flow like the tide.

我早年的经历让我深刻体会到，每个人内心其实都那么脆弱。

My early years made me very aware of this inherent fragility we all have.

但后来，我学会了把全部的精神能量集中起来，去完成那些曾经觉得根本不可能做到的事。

But later on, I learned how to harness and channel all my mental horsepower to accomplish things I never thought possible for myself.

我靠的是打造一个我如今称之为‘心理实验室’的东西。

And I did it by building what I now refer to as my mental lab, my mental.

这个实验室的建设，是从我最后一次去布法罗之后开始的。

Construction began after my last trip to Buffalo.

那时我才终于停下抱怨，意识到我需要的训练场其实就在身边。

That's when I finally stopped complaining long enough to realize the training ground that I needed was all around me.

我那乱七八糟的人生，正是我一直在找的原材料。

My fucked up life was the raw material I was looking for.

只要我认真观察自己的冲动、不安和行为，放下羞耻感，愿意剖析自己的怀疑、焦虑和恐惧，我就能找到改变生活的动力和力量。

And if I paid close attention to my impulses, insecurities and actions, dropped the shame and remained willing to dissect myself doubt, anxiety, and fear, I would find the strength and motivation to transform my life.

很快，我就埋头苦读，全力准备ASVAB考试，每天在健身房或户外跑步六到八小时，只为达到海豹突击队的选拔标准。

Soon enough, I found myself hitting the books hard to prepare for the ASVAB test and spending six to eight hours in the gym or on the trails every day to qualify for Navy SEAL training.

没过多久我就明白，就像生活本身一样，艰苦的训练和漫长的复习总会把我的弱点暴露无遗。

And it didn't take long to realize that like life itself, difficult workouts and long study sessions tended to spotlight all my weak points.

我总想乱吃东西，做事总想偷懒，缺乏动力，复习ASVAB时注意力也总涣散——这些都暴露了我甘于平庸的心态。

My desire to continue to eat like shit, my natural impulse to cut corners in almost everything I did, my general lack of drive, and my flagging attention during those marathon ASVAB study sessions revealed my willingness to settle for mediocrity.

但最常浮现的，是我没能通过空降救援训练的经历。

But what came up for me most often was my failure in para rescue training.

那段时间，它一直缠着我。

It was my constant companion during those weeks.

无论我去哪儿，它都跟在身后。

It shadowed me wherever I went.

我进空军新兵营时，身体状态达到了人生巅峰。

I'd arrived at Air Force boot camp in the best shape of my life.

等到八周后水上救援训练开始时，我已经达到了体能的巅峰状态。

And by the time para rescue training began eight weeks later, I was in peak physical condition.

我把预警命令从头到尾读了个遍，为每一次体能训练都做了充分准备，以为光靠力量和速度就够了。

I'd read the warning order front to back and prepared for each and every time physical evolution, assuming my strength and speed would be enough.

但我缺乏坚持到底的心理韧性。

But I lacked the mental strength to see it through.

一次可怕的水中训练后，我对水的恐惧把我困住了，最后我选择了放弃。

After a terrifying pool evolution, my fear of the water held me hostage until I quit.

我越反复剖析那次经历，就越意识到自己多么需要这个新的心理训练场。

The more I dissected that situation, the more I realized how much I needed this new mental lab.

我当时体重将近三百磅，必须在不到三个月的时间里减掉一百磅以上。

Being that I was damn near three hundred pounds and had to lose more than one hundred in less than three months.

我知道，虽然我带着一生中最好的体能状态去圣迭戈报到是不现实的，但其实也没必要那样。

I knew it wasn't possible to report to Naval Special Warfare Command in Coronado in the best physical shape of my life, but that wasn't necessary.

我的根本问题从来就不是身体上的。

My root problems were not and never had been physical.

全是心理上的问题。

They were all mental.

在我的实验室里，每一次体能训练都成了对意志力的考验。

In my lab, each physical workout became a test of my mental fortitude.

我不再在意自己的身材看起来怎么样。

I stopped caring about how my body looked.

当你的心志坚如铁板，根本不需要八块腹肌。

You don't need six pack abs when your mind is steel plated.

从那时起，每一次跑步、每小时的引体向上、所有深夜的学习，都成了实验，看看在不断加压的情况下，我的意志能撑多久。

From that point on, each run every hour on the pull up bar and all my late night study sessions became experiments conducted to see how long my mind would hold out when I continued to apply more and more pressure.

我在塑造一个无所畏惧的狠角色，只要能成为海豹突击队员，哪怕经历三周地狱训练、拖着断腿奔跑也绝不退缩。

I was creating a motherfucker that was mentally prepared to do anything it took to become a seal, even if it meant experiencing three hell weeks and running on broken legs.

这些实验后来整整持续了二十年。

Those same experiments continued for the next twenty years.

在无数次的考验、跌倒和失败中，我培养出了另一个自我——一个近乎不屈的狠人，无论遇到什么障碍，都能硬扛过去。

And through all my countless trials, tumbles, and failures, I cultivated an alter ego, a savage who refused to quit under almost any circumstance, someone capable of overcoming any and all obstacles.

我之所以想分享在实验室里的领悟，是因为我知道这些能帮到别人。起初我只是在社交媒体上慢慢透露内心的驱动力，后来却演变成在《不能伤害我》这本书里彻底坦白。

I felt compelled to share what I learned in the lab because I knew it could help people and what started as a slow reveal of my inner drive on social media swelled to a deep confession in can't hurt me.

任何关注我、翻到这一页的人，都清楚我从哪里来，以及是什么在推动我。

Anybody who tuned in or turned the page knew exactly where I came from and what drives me.

但我从未提过的一点是，我的内心和灵魂其实有两面。

But one thing I never shared was that there were two sides to my psyche and soul.

如果你总觉得不够好，觉得生活没有意义，眼睁睁看着时间从指缝溜走，那唯一的出路就是：在你自己的精神实验室里重塑自己。

If you don't feel like you're good enough, if your life lacks meaning and time feels like it's slipping through your fingers, there is only one option, recreate yourself in your own mental lab.

找一个能独处、与自己内心对话的地方，直面你这一生真正想成为什么样的人。

Somewhere you can be alone with your thoughts and wrestle with the substance of what and who you want to be in your one short life on earth.

如果感觉对了，就创造一个另我，去触碰你内心深处那些黑暗的力量。

If it feels right, create an alter ego to access some of that dark matter in your own mind.

我就是这么做的。

That's what I did.

在我的心里，大卫·戈金斯并不是那个完成所有艰难事的野兽混蛋。

In my mind, David Goggins wasn't the savage motherfucker who accomplished all the hard shit.

那些事都是戈金斯做的。

It was Goggins who did that.

戴维是个一出生就一只眼睛闭着，从小生活在恐惧和束缚中的孩子。

David was the kid born with one eye closed and raised scared and shackled.

我本身并没有什么特别之处。

There was nothing inherently special about me.

我只是不再纠结于那些拖后腿的事，转而学会把拒绝、痛苦和失败当作工具，榨干内心所有未被利用的黑暗力量、潜能、热情和渴望。

I just stopped focusing on what was holding me back and learned to use rejection, pain and failure as tools to harness every available bit of dark matter in my mind, all my unused strength, passion and desire.

这过程很少有乐趣。

It was rarely fun.

我受的苦远多于笑的时刻，但正是这些帮我塑造了那个另我。

I suffered way more than I smiled, but it helped me create my alter ego.

戈金斯的力量，来自我灵魂深处那块绝不妥协的黑暗面。

Goggins was powered by the dark side of my soul that refused to be denied.

他只有一个目标：成为有史以来最硬核的人。

And he had one goal, to become the hardest motherfucker to ever live.

我们每个人都有一个内心的实验室，但大多数人根本不知道自己拥有改变自我的能力。

We all have a mental lab at our disposal, but most people don't even know that they have access to a place where they can transform themselves.

所以他们始终被挡在外面。

Therefore, they remain locked out.

等他们到了中年，门上早已锈迹斑斑，还上了多重锁。

By the time they hit midlife, the doors are wrapped with a rusty chain and dead bolted.

里面的设备积满灰尘，全都坏了。

The equipment inside is dusty and broken.

杂草从地基和屋顶上长了出来。

Weeds are sprouting from the foundation and the roof.

我的实验室大门也锁了二十年，因为是我自己把自己关在了里面。

For two decades, the doors to my lab were locked too because I'd locked myself inside.

但经历了那次心脏危机后，我才意识到，不知不觉中，我早已梦游般走出了那个内心实验室，而门在我身后悄然关上并锁死了。

But after my heart scare, I realized that without even knowing it at some point, I'd sleep walked out of my mental lab and the doors had shut and locked behind me.