第16集：我嫉妒死亡

很高兴回来。

It's good to be back.

只有我和你。

Just me and you.

这周，我们再次深入我的个人日记，这一周真是精彩。

This week, we dig back into my personal diary once again, and what a week it's been.

凌晨两点遇到意想不到的问题，差点让我们损失数百万。

Unpredicted problems at 2AM that could have cost us millions.

我们意识到，我们都应该羡慕死亡。

Figuring out that we should all be jealous of death.

理解为什么完美主义者最容易拖延，以及如何解决这个问题。

Understanding why perfectionists procrastinate the most and how to fix it.

最后，我们明白了，在人际关系中，我们都应该寻找某种东西，还有更多更多。

Finally, figuring out that all of us should be looking for a certain thing in relationships and much, much more.

这是我独自录制过的最喜欢的播客。

This is my favorite podcast that I've ever recorded alone.

对我来说，这也是一种疗愈。

And to me, this was therapy.

如果你也想找到这些问题的答案，那就得好好听。

If you want answers to these questions too and others, you have to listen.

话不多说，这是第16章。

Without further ado, this is chapter 16.

我是斯蒂芬·巴特利特。

And I'm Stephen Bartlett.

这是《CEO的日记》。

This is the diary of a CEO.

希望没有人在听，但如果你在听，请把这件事藏在心里。

I hope nobody is listening, but if you are, then please keep this to yourself.

好的。

Okay.

这周我日记里的第一点，就是重新写下了新的渴望，回到那种乞求、借用和偷窃的状态。

So the first point in my diary this week, I've just written new hunger, back to the beg, borrow and steal.

好的。

Okay.

给大家稍微交代一下背景，熟悉这个播客的朋友都知道，从我大学辍学到现在这四五年里，我组建了一支非常棒的团队，打造了一家规模相当可观的公司。

So for some context, as you guys and girls will know that listen to this podcast, over the last four, five, six years since dropping out of university, I've built a fairly substantial business with an amazing team.

这家公司现在雇佣了超过两百名员工。

And this business now employs over 200 people.

业务增长非常快，在全球设有五个办公室。

It's growing exceptionally fast and it has five offices around the world.

过去几个月里，我决定搬去纽约。

And in the last couple of months, I've made the decision that I'm going to move to New York.

我明天就出发去纽约。

And I'm moving to New York tomorrow.

明白吗？

Okay?

所以这几个月我一直在纽约断断续续地待着，尤其是上个月，我在纽约待了大概两周，这是我在那边待得最久的一次。

And so I've spent on and off the last couple of months in New York, but particularly the last month I spent about two weeks in New York, which is the most I've ever spent there.

在做出这个决定的过程中，我从一个拥有滑梯、球池、小狗和幼犬、数百名员工以及完善制度和流程的办公室搬离，过着相对舒适的生活。随着业务的发展，我不断问自己：如果一切重来，我还能回到起点，重新做一遍吗？

And in doing so, in moving myself from an office where we have slides and ball pools and dogs and puppies and hundreds of members of staff and systems and processes and, you know, a lifestyle where I have all the sort of relative comforts, I've always asked myself as the business has grown, would I be able to go back to the start and do it all again?

我是否还保持着十八岁时的那股冲劲？

Would I have that hunger that I had when I was 18 years old?

因为十八岁那年，我非常渴望成功。

Because when I was 18 years old, I was desperate.

那不仅仅是饥饿感。

I wasn't just hungry.

我当时真的走投无路。

I was desperate.

我只是勉强维持生计。

I was surviving.

你知道的，我妈妈因为我不念大学已经两年没跟我说话了，她对我很生气。

My, you know, my mom hadn't spoke to me for two years because I dropped out of university and she was mad at me.

我身无分文。

I didn't have a penny to my name.

而且我连个银行账户都没有，因为银行把我所有的账户都封了。

And I also didn't even have a bank account to put that penny in because the banks had removed all my bank accounts.

说实话，这个问题一直困扰着我。

And so this question has quite frankly haunted me.

我一直在想，我还能不能回到那种拼命打拼的状态。

I've wondered if I could go back to the hustle.

我也在琢磨，我能不能找回当年那种不择手段也要成功的劲头。

I've wondered if I could bring back that beg, borrow and steal hunger I had.

也许大家觉得我已经太安逸、太成功了，之类的，所以不可能再像以前那样充满干劲了，对吧？

Maybe I'm considered to be too comfortable or successful or whatever to be hungry again, right?

把我们的业务拓展到美国市场，这是一个巨大的挑战。

Taking our business to The US market is an enormous challenge.

过去这一个月，我几乎把所有精力都放在美国市场上，我发现真正驱动我不断向前的，从来都不是钱。

And what I've discovered over the last month with my focus being pretty exclusively on The US is that it was never the money that was fueling my hunger.

也不是为了证明那些质疑我的人错了，才让我如此拼命。

It was never the silencing people that doubted me that was making me hungry.

在最根本的层面上，是挑战让我充满了动力。

At the most fundamental level, it was the challenge that made me hungry.

挑战才能激发出这种渴望。

Challenge creates hunger.

挑战越大，机会就越大，我离它越远，我就越想把它拿下。

The greater the challenge, the greater the opportunity, the further away I am from it, and therefore the hungrier I am.

史蒂夫·巴特利特用第三人称这么说，他意识到我要进军美国市场，那里规模大六倍，但我们在那里的团队只有原来的六分之一。

And Steve Bartlett, talking in third person here, in realizing that I'm going to The US market and that it's six times bigger, but we have a sixth of the team there.

所以，面对这个巨大的挑战，而且我们资源有限，这种处境反而让我比以往任何时候都更有斗志。

So it's, you know, this enormous challenge and we don't have the resources has become hungrier than ever before.

因为这是我人生中遇到的最大挑战。

Because this is the greatest challenge of my life.

而人生最大的挑战总会伴随着各种各样的事情，比如别人的质疑、觉得你不可能成功、持怀疑态度等等。

And with the greatest challenge of my life come all of these things, you know, people doubting you, not thinking it's possible, skepticism, all of these things.

不管我承不承认，所有这些因素都在不断激发我的斗志。

And all of those things, whether I like to admit it or not, do fuel my hunger.

谁在乎钱啊？

Who gives a shit about the money?

我可怜那些在乎钱的人，因为那是一条通往彻底悲伤的路。

I pity people that care about the money because you're on a road to total sadness.

对吧？

Right?

对我来说，重要的是挑战。

For me, it's about the challenge.

我搬到纽约，给自己带来的就是一个新的挑战。

And what I've given myself in moving to New York is a new challenge.

我很感激，所有听这个播客的人都会和我一起面对这个挑战。

And I'm thankful that everybody that listens to this podcast is gonna come on that challenge with me.

我明天早上就搬到纽约市，然后我们又要开始了。

I move tomorrow morning to New York City and there we go again.

好的。

Okay.

所以，我日记里的下一点，其实我刚多写了一组，但这和那关系不大。

So the next point in my diary, I've actually just written one more rep, but it doesn't really have much to do with that.

但让我解释一下。

But let me explain.

好的。

Okay.

背景是这样的。

Context.

这周，我收到了一个坏消息。

This week, I got some terrible news.

坏消息。

Terrible news.

还有更多背景。

And even more context.

我刚在伦敦开了一整天的会。

I just had a long day of meetings in London.

我接受了GQ的采访。

I had interviews with GQ.

我开了一堆会。

I had a bunch of meetings.

我打了一堆重要的电话，打遍了全世界。

I had a bunch of important calls all around the world.

而且我累坏了，因为我得早起，还得赶很早的火车去伦敦。

And I'm absolutely exhausted because I had to be up and to London super early.

所以差不多就是晚上九点半。

So it's literally about 09:30PM.

我在睡觉。

I'm sleeping.

我的头倒在桌子上，在火车上睡着了。

My head is falling onto the table on the train and I'm asleep.

然后我收到了一条消息。

And I get a message.

紧急。

Urgent.

请给我打电话。

Please call me.

而给我发这条消息的人，绝不会、绝不会、绝不会这么说。

And the person that sent me this message would never ever ever say that.

于是我打电话给这个人，他们告诉我出了点事，具体我就不细说了。

And so I call this person and they tell me something's happened, which I won't go into.

但这件事，这件事的发生，可能会让我们损失数百万英镑。

But this this thing that's happened has the potential of costing us millions of pounds.

数百万英镑，对吧？

Millions and millions of pounds, right?

这是一个突如其来的、难以预料的问题，可能会让我们损失数百万。

It's an unpredictable issue that has come out of the blue and could cost us millions.

然后我花了接下来的四个小时来处理这个问题。

I then spend the next four hours trying to deal with this issue.

凌晨一点，我打了好几个重要的电话。

I have a number of important phone calls at 1AM in the morning.

凌晨两点，我又得赶回办公室。

I have to rush back to the office at 2AM in the morning.

好在后来，很多优秀的人齐心协力，真的非常想解决这个问题，我们最终像往常一样顺利度过了难关。

And eventually, because a lot of great people cobbled together and they really, really wanted to solve this issue, we got past it as we always tend to do.

如果你听过我的播客，就会知道，当你经营一家公司，或者承担那种级别的责任，又或者像我们在Social Chain这样把事业做到一定高度时，这种突发状况简直随时随地都会发生。

And, you know, as if you've listened to my podcast, you'll know that these things just come out of the blue all the time when you run a business or you have the sort of level of responsibility or you've reached the sort of heights of building something that we have at Social Chain.

这种事总是突然冒出来。

These things come out of the blue.

但这不是重点。

But that's not the point.

重点是这个。

Here's the point.

所以我凌晨两点回到家，累得半死，但肾上腺素还在体内冲撞，然后我就躺到床上去了。

So I go home at 2AM now, absolutely exhausted, still with a bit of sort of adrenaline running through my veins and I get in bed.

我真是累坏了，对吧？

I am absolutely exhausted, right?

就在我快要睡着的时候，我想，好吧，史蒂夫，你只需要定好明天的闹钟就行。

And as I'm falling asleep, I think, okay, Steve, you need do is set your alarm for tomorrow.

看看明天有什么事要处理。

Check what you have to do tomorrow.

于是我去看明天的日程表，结果一打开日历，不小心跳到了今天。

So I look at my calendar for tomorrow and as I open my calendar, it accidentally opens on today.

我一看日历，上面写着今天得录播客、拍个Instagram视频。

And it says on my calendar today, record your podcast and shoot an Instagram video.

再翻到明天，上面写着我早上六点得起床回伦敦。

I go to tomorrow and it says that I have to be up at 6AM to go back to London.

我就这么干坐到凌晨两点半，心里清楚今天还有两小时的工作没做完。

I'm sat there at two 02:30AM in the morning, knowing that I have two more hours of work that I was meant to do today.

然后我又得在六点左右爬起来赶火车。

And then I have to be up at 6AM roughly to get on the train.

所以真的，就睡两个小时。

So really, going to get two hours sleep.

跟你说实话，这完全就是我生活的写照。

Being completely honest with you, this is very much the story of my life.

那一刻，我面临一个选择，我能感觉到这个选择，对吧？

In that moment, I have a choice and I feel the choice, right?

我真的能感觉到这个选择。

I actually feel the choice.

选择是这样的。

Here's the choice.

史蒂夫，你到底有多想要它？

Steve, how bad do you want it?

你到底有多想要它？

How bad do you want it?

当我躺在床上时，我感觉到那个决定向我袭来。

As I'm lying there in my bed, I feel that decision come to me.

你到底有多想要它？

How bad do you want it?

我觉得我们所有人，在人生的某些时刻，都会有这种感受，对吧？

And this is something that I think all of us, all of us feel at certain moments in our life, right?

我们会自己划定界限。

We decide where our limits are.

而在这个过程中，我们也决定了自己能获得多少回报。

And in doing so, we decide the extent of our own rewards.

所以在那一刻，如果我起床录播客、拍个Instagram视频，我知道今天这点努力可能只带来0.001%的进步，几乎可以忽略不计。

So in that moment, if I get out of bed and I record my podcast and I make an Instagram video, I know that today I'll move the needle maybe 0.001% negligible.

在座很多人应该都知道，我最喜欢的一本书是《微习惯》（A Slight Edge）。

And as many of you will know, one of my favorite books is A Slight Edge.

书里讲到，这些0.001%的小改变会不断累积，和其他微小的进步叠加在一起，最终塑造并定义了你的一切。

And it talks about how those 0.001% compound and come together with other 0.001% to form and to define everything that you are.

我深信这一点。

I believe in that.

所以在经历了漫长几个月里最艰难的一天后，我在凌晨两点爬起来，去录制我的播客。

And so after the hardest day in many, many months, I pick myself up at 2AM in the morning and I go and record my podcast.

如果我不做，没人会说什么。

If I didn't do it, nobody would say anything.

如果我不做，今天也不会发生任何改变。

If I didn't do it, nothing would change today.

但正是这些一次次重复的努力，塑造了我的一生。

But it's in doing those sort of efforts time and time again, that have been the making of me for my whole life.

我坚信这一点。

And I believe in that.

我相信真正的成长来自于多做的每一次努力，而不是朝九晚五的常规工作；成长发生在下午五点到晚上十点之间。

I believe that the growth is in the extra rep, not in the nine to five, the growth is in the 5PM till 10PM.

如果你能在晚上十点到凌晨两点继续付出，那更是加分项。

And you get extra points for the 10PM till 2AM.

大家听到这话可能会批评我，说我这是在鼓吹过度劳累。

And, you know, when people hear that, they'll attack me and they'll say Steve is encouraging people to overwork.

史蒂夫正在推动一种过度工作、精疲力竭和心理健康问题的文化。

Steve is driving a culture of overworking and burning out and mental health issues.

事实并非如此。

It's just not the case.

你来听我的播客，我想，是为了听我的观点，对吧？

You come to my podcast, I presume, and you listen to me to hear my opinion, right?

这就是我的观点。

And that's my opinion.

这就是我所知道的一切。

This is all I know.

我不能告诉你，不努力工作就等于成功，因为我不知道这一点。

I can't tell you that not working hard equals success because I just don't know that.

我不知道那个真相。

I don't know that truth.

也许别人知道，对吧？

Maybe somebody else does, right?

但这是我的人生，也是我的亲身经历。

But this is my life and this is my experience.

所以关键不在于过度劳累、把自己累垮或者逼到自己崩溃，因为如果你真有这种感觉，那就一定要停下来。

So it's not about overworking or burning yourself out or driving yourself into the ground because if you ever feel that way, then you should definitely stop.

但当你真心热爱自己的工作，把它当成乐趣，并且确实想去做的时候，有时候你完全可以像去健身房一样，再逼自己一把。

But when you love your work and when it's your fun and when you do want to do it, sometimes you can push yourself just like you push yourself in the gym.

就像在健身房里一样，真正的突破不是在前八次重复中获得的，而是在最后那两次力竭时肌肉撕裂的瞬间。

And just like in the gym, it's not in the first eight reps that you get your gains, it's in that last two reps that you rip your muscles.

那为什么这不能算作生活的一部分呢？

And why can't that count for life too?

人们去健身房锻炼，努力训练，把肌肉推到极限，直到撕裂然后生长。

People go to the gym, they work out and they push their muscles beyond their limits until they rip and grow.

为什么你的职业、事业和生活不能也一样呢？

Why can't the same be for your profession, your career and for your life?

我相信是可以的。

I believe it is.

好的。

Okay.

所以我日记里写的下一个观点是：自我是幸福的天敌。

So the next point I wrote in my diary is ego is the enemy of happiness.

我其实已经写下来了，所以我就直接念给你听。

And I've actually written this out, so I'm just gonna read it to you.

自以为是会破坏内心的满足感。

Egotism is the enemy of contentment.

如果你高估了自己的重要性，就很难做到知足、踏实和满足。

It's hard to be content, grounded and satisfied if you overestimate your own importance.

无论你多富有、多漂亮或多聪明，也无论你在生活中取得了多少成就，你都要接受一个事实：在社会眼里那些不如你的人，其实和你一样平等。

No matter how rich, pretty or smart you are, no matter how much you've achieved in your life, you need to embrace the fact that you are equal to those that are perceived to have less than you by society.

对自己重要性的错误认知，会引发你内心的冲突和情感困扰。

An unhealthy view of your own significance will lead to your own personal and emotional conflicts.

而这些都会导致不快乐。

And all of these things lead to unhappiness.

你得保持谦逊，也要保持快乐。

You have to stay humble and you have to stay happy.

好，日记里接下来的点是：活到终点线。

Okay, so the next point in my diary is live at the finish line.

让我解释一下。

Let me explain.

我们都见过到处都在传的那句名言：把每一天都当作最后一天来过。

We've all seen that quote everywhere that says live as if each day was your last.

过去五到十年里，每次看到这句话，我都觉得不太舒服，因为我不认为这是个好建议。

And whenever I've seen that quote over the last five or ten years, I've just been uncomfortable with it because I don't think it's good advice.

我觉得，如果你每天都像过最后一天那样生活，你会把大量时间花在不可持续且有害的事情上。

I think if you lived as if each day was your last, you would spend disproportionate amounts of time doing something which is unsustainable and destructive.

比如你可能会在那最后一天去度假。

So you might go on holiday for that last day.

或者如果你有兴趣，可能会把所有钱都花在赌场里。

You might spend all at a casino if you're that way inclined.

你可能会把最后一天都花在和伴侣亲热上。

You might spend all having sex with your partner.

比如，你可能会把最后一天都花在和家人待在一起。

Like, you might spend all hanging out with your family.

但这些事情都不是可持续的。

All of these things aren't sustainable.

明天很可能会到来。

Tomorrow is probably coming.

所以，虽然你要活在当下，享受生活，不留遗憾，但明天很可能会到来。

And so although you have to live in the moment and you have to enjoy yourself and live with no regrets, tomorrow is probably coming.

而且你确实需要为生活建立一个可持续的模式。

And you do have to create a sustainable model to your life.

对吧？

Right?

但与此同时，生命并不是有保障的。

But at the same time, life isn't guaranteed.

十年并不保证。

Ten years isn't guaranteed.

五年并不保证。

Five years isn't guaranteed.

一年并不保证。

One year isn't guaranteed.

但明天很可能会来。

But tomorrow is probably coming.

所以对我来说，具体来说，我一生中很多时间都在告诉自己，二十年后我会做我一直想做的事。

And so for me, specifically, I've spent much of my life telling myself that in twenty years time, I'll do something I've always wanted to do.

二十年后，我会更多地捐款，更多地参与慈善，等我准备好了，你知道，二十年后。

In twenty years time, I'll give more to charity and I'll help out more in charities when I'm ready and, you know, in twenty.

但二十年并不保证。

But twenty years time isn't guaranteed.

所以对我来说，关键是现在就建立一种生活，让我做所有那些事情，就像我已经在终点线一样。

And so the key for me is building a life now where I'm doing all of those things as if I was at the finish line.

这也是我写《在终点线生活》的原因。

And that's why I've written Live at the Finish Line.

你知道，我想多做一些慈善。

You know, I want to be more charitable.

那我为什么现在不能做慈善呢？

Why can't I be charitable now?

我为什么不能现在就过上一种可以做慈善的生活呢？

Why can't I build a life where I can be charitable now?

约翰·文森特也提到过这一点。

And John Vincent talked about it.

他说，很多企业主和商业领袖都会跟自己说，等我建立起庞大的事业，等我有钱了，再去赞助慈善拍卖之类的活动。

He said, you know, business owners and business leaders will say to themselves, I'll build this massive business and then I'll, you know, sponsor a charity auction once I'm rich.

为什么不能现在就建立一个模式，把当下的这些愿望都实现呢？

Why can't you build a model where you do all of those desires you have now?

我想多去看看这个世界，多找点乐子，更充分地体验生活。

I want to, you know, see the world more and have more fun and experience life more.

如果我知道自己快死了，我会那么做。

That's what I would do if I knew I was going to die.

对吧？

Right?

那些会是我的遗憾。

Those would be my regrets.

所以我现在就需要建立一种生活，因为如果我认为史蒂夫·巴特利特不会一辈子都当企业家，那我就是在自欺欺人。

So I need to build a life now because I'm kidding myself if I think that Steve Bartlett isn't gonna be an entrepreneur his whole fucking life.

我会一辈子做这件事，这很酷，但我需要建立一个可持续的模式。

I'm gonna do this my whole life and that's cool, but I need to build a sustainable model to that.

对吧？

Right?

这样我就能做其他事情，比如做慈善、环游世界等等。

Where I can do these other things like being charitable and seeing the world, etcetera.

甚至包括家庭这一点。

And even the family point.

在我内心深处，我对自己说过，等我的事业有了某种结果，我会花更多时间陪家人。

Deep down in me somewhere, I've said to myself that I'll spend more time with my family when I've reached some kind of conclusion with my businesses or whatever.

我永远不会在事业上得到某种结果。

I'm never going to reach a conclusion with my businesses.

这就是我的一生。

This is going to be my life.

所以，考虑到这一点，我必须活在终点线上。

And so with that in mind, I have to live at the finish line.

我现在必须创造一种生活，让所有对我重要的东西都成为我每一天、每一周、每一月的一部分，对吧？

I have to create a life now where all of these things that are important to me are part of my every days, my every weeks, my every months, right?

这是我必须改变的事情。

And this is something I have to change.

我知道生命不是理所当然的。

I know life isn't guaranteed.

等待没有意义。

There is no point in waiting.

我们都活在一个疯狂的错觉里，以为自己会永远活着。

We all live under this crazy delusion that we're gonna live forever.

而且我真的很相信这一点。

And I really believe that.

这是我很难理解的事情之一。

It's one of the things I just struggle to understand.

即使我现在告诉你你会死，你也不会相信。

Even if I tell you now that you're gonna die, you don't believe it.

你不会相信的。

You don't believe it.

你知道我怎么知道你不相信吗？

Do you know how I know you don't believe it?

因为你生活的方式。

Because of the way you're living your life.

说实话，如果你知道自己会死，你还会活得这么安逸吗？

Honestly, if you knew you were going to die, would you be so safe?

真的吗？

Really?

我不这么认为。

I don't think so.

我真的、真的不这么认为。

I really, really don't think so.

在终点线上过你的生活。

Live your life at the finish line.

我日记里的下一个重点是那些试图拆散我们的力量。

The next point in my diary is all the forces that try to tear us apart.

我的意思是这样的。

And here's what I mean.

特别是这周，有很多人冲着我们来，对吧？

This week in particular, we just had a lot of people coming for us, right?

作为一个公司，作为一个企业，有人试图拆散我们。

As a company, as a business, people trying to tear us apart.

这对我来说并不新鲜。

It's not something that's new to me.

这种事每周都会发生。

This happens every single week.

我注意到，你越成功，在公众眼中越有名，就会有越多的人试图把你拉下来。

And I've noticed the more successful you've got, the more recognized you are in the public eye, the more people will try and tear you down.

我觉得大家有一种看法，就是越成功或者钱越多，生活就越轻松。

I think there's this perception that the more successful you get or the more money you have, the easier life is.

你永远看不到在这个级别的商业或生活中，你会遇到多少仇恨、多少悲观，还有多少，怎么说呢，嫉妒。

You never see the amount of hate and the amount of pessimism and the amount of, I guess, envy in some ways that you get at this type of level in sort of business or life.

对吧？

Right?

有句老话说得很有道理。

There's that old expression which rings true.

钱越多，麻烦越多。

More money, more problems.

对吧？

Right?

而且我再补充一点，你生活中越成功，你打败的人就越多。

And just to add to that a little bit, the more success you get in your life, the more people you'll be beating.

而人们不喜欢输。

And people don't like to lose.

想想看。

Think about that.

你越成功，你打败的人就越多。

The more successful you are, the more people you're beating.

所以，如果你是世界上最伟大的艺术家，对吧，你打败了所有其他艺术家。

So if you're the world's greatest artist, right, you're beating every other artist.

如果你是刘易斯·汉密尔顿，刚刚赢得大奖赛，你打败了其他19位车手。

If you are Lewis Hamilton and you've just won the Grand Prix, you just beat 19 other drivers.

在他们的心里，你从他们那里拿走了某些东西。

You've you've taken something from them in their mind.

那就是19个人有理由盼着你栽跟头。

That's 19 people that have an incentive to see you fall.

这是你必须接受的事情。

And it's something that you have to live with.

对吧？

Right?

这是我过去几年里学会接受的事情。

It's something that I've learned over the last couple of years to just live with.

你知道，我们会收到各种公司或媒体的邮件，说这个人准备写一篇关于你的负面报道。

You know, we'll get emails from various companies or press or whatever, and it will say this person is about to write this bad story about you.

你得明白，这是不可避免的。

You know, and you just gotta realize that it comes with the territory.

感觉每隔一天就有人想拆掉我建立起来的东西。

It feels like every other day there's somebody trying to tear down what I've built.

而且这也不是什么新鲜事。

And this is, again, this isn't a new thing.

这就是每天都会发生的事。

This is this is every day.

从某种程度上说，这是生活在问我们有多想要这一切。

And in some ways, it's life asking us how much do we want this?

你的脸皮有多厚？

How thick is your skin?

你为此准备好了多少？

And how prepared were you for this?

我准备好了。

I'm ready.

放马过来吧。

Bring it on.

好的。

Okay.

我日记里的下一点会像一吨砖头一样砸向你。

The next point of my diary is gonna hit you like a ton of bricks.

对吧？

Right?

我要说出来，然后解释一下。

And I'm gonna say it and then I'm gonna explain.

我嫉妒死亡。

I am jealous of death.

好吧。

Okay.

现在让我解释一下，因为这真是个难以置信的说法。

Now let me explain because that's a fucking unbelievable statement.

我来解释。

I'm gonna explain.

所以我遇到了一个信基督教的女孩。

So I met this Christian girl.

对吧？

Right?

我和她聊了很久，她告诉我她信耶稣或者上帝，或者，你知道的，她信的任何神，因为她不喜欢死亡这件事。

And I had a long conversation with her, and she's told me that she believes in Jesus or God or, you know, whatever deity she believes in because she doesn't like the idea of dying.

她不喜欢死亡这件事。

She doesn't like the idea of dying.

她害怕死亡。

She's scared of death.

然后我转向她，我说，我不明白你为什么害怕死亡。

And I turned to her and I said, I don't understand why you're scared of death.

你一百五十年前是什么感觉？

How did you feel 150 ago?

她说，我没什么感觉，我什么感觉都没有。

And she said, I didn't feel I didn't feel anything.

然后我说，你两百年前是什么感觉？

And I said, how did you feel two hundred years ago?

她说，我没什么感觉，我什么感觉都没有。

And she said, I didn't feel I didn't feel anything.

我说，你感到害怕吗？

I said, did you feel scared?

她说，不。

And she said, no.

我说，一百年后你也会这样。

I said, that's how you're gonna feel in a 100 time.

一百年后你也会这样。

That's exactly how you'll feel in a 100 time.

你会什么都感觉不到。

You'll feel nothing.

一百年前你还没出生时，你也没感到害怕。

You didn't feel scared a hundred years ago when you weren't here.

一百年后你也不在了，你也不会感到害怕。

You're not gonna feel scared in a hundred years' time when you aren't here either.

我深深地热爱我的生活。

I am deeply in love with my life.

但我也完全不怕死。

But I'm also completely fine with dying.

我完全不怕死。

I'm completely fine with dying.

而且我是认真的。

And I really mean that.

而且从某种角度看，当你想到死亡，它其实还挺让人羡慕的。

And in some ways, when you think about death, it's actually something to be quite jealous of.

那是一种彻底的宁静。

It's a total peacefulness.

你知道，活着是值得的。

You know, life is worth living.

生命是我们所有人都必须珍惜的最神奇的恩赐。

Life is the most magical privilege all of us have to cherish.

但死亡并不是什么可怕的事。

But death is not something to be feared.

而且，你知道，我是在为死亡而玩。

And, you know, I'm playing for death.

这就是我在玩的游戏。

That's the game I'm playing.

如果我不会死，那我为什么凌晨四点还醒着录这个播客？

If I don't die, then why the fuck am I awake at 4AM right now recording this podcast?

我本来可以睡觉的。

I could have been asleep.

为什么我一直这么没耐心？

Why have I been so impatient?

为什么我冒了这么多险，如果没有，你知道，如果这场演出永远不会结束，那我为什么，为什么我跳得那么卖力、那么久？

Why have I taken so many risks if there was no you know, if this show never ends, why did I why did I dance so hard and for so long?

你明白我的意思吗？

Do you know what I mean?

这就是我对死亡的感受。

That's how I feel about death.

对我来说，死亡在驱动我的渴望、欲望、急躁，还有我学习的欲望和一切方面，都太重要了。

Death for me is so important in driving my hunger, my desire, my impatience, and my, you know, my my desire to learn and everything.

死亡，也就是必有一死，也消除了我们有什么可失去的这种想法，就像史蒂夫·乔布斯说的那样。

Death is the guarantee of dying also removes this idea, as Steve Jobs said, that we have anything to lose.

它让你自由。

It frees you up.

它解放了你。

It liberates you.

所以，我不仅对死亡这个想法很羡慕，我还感激死亡。

So not only am I quite jealous of the idea of death, I I'm grateful for death.

再澄清一下，因为我知道这是个很强烈的说法，我爱我的生活。

And just to clarify again, because I know this is a strong statement to make, I love my life.

在我看来，我的生活是我曾经拥有过、也将永远拥有的最大特权。

My life is the greatest privilege in my own mind that I've ever and will ever have.

对吧？

Right?

所以我尽我所能，不辜负这份特权，因为我意识到有些人没有这份特权，而有些人很不幸地过早失去了这份特权。

And so I do everything that I can to not disrespect that privilege because I realize that some people didn't get that privilege and some people unfortunately lose that privilege way too early.

你必须尊重这份特权，但同时，你不能活在恐惧死亡的阴影里。

You've got to respect that privilege, but at the same time, you cannot live a life fearing death.

我认为对死亡的恐惧实际上会让你变得不那么高效，不那么有野心，以及诸如此类的事情。

I think the fear of death actually will drive you to be less productive, less ambitious, and all of these things.

它会让你相信那些让你觉得没有死亡的事情。

It will convince you to believe in things that will convince you that there is no death.

而对我来说，死亡是一个巨大的驱动力。

And death for me is a great driver.

是的。

Yeah.

希望这些都能说得通。

Hopefully, that all makes sense.

你知道的。

You know.

好的。

Okay.

这周我有了一个新发现，虽然只是最近才注意到，但这感悟却是一辈子的。

The next point has been a bit of a observation this week, but it's an observation of a lifetime.

我就是这周才突然想通的。

I just realized it this week.

对有些人来说，这话可能听起来挺老套的，但对我而言，当我意识到自己在追求成功、追求把每件事都做得更好时，这个念头就像重磅炸弹一样击中了我——因为我下定决心，每天都要比昨天的自己更优秀。

To some, this might sound pretty cliche, but to me, it hit me like a ton of bombshells when I realized that in my pursuit to find out what's actually causing success and what's causing us to be better at everything we do, because I am determined to be better than Steve yesterday, every single day.

其实，有一件事我之前没太重视。

Really, there's something which I haven't given enough credit to.

我日记里写着一句话：坚持就是一切。

And the note in my diary is consistency is everything.

认为成功靠的是天赋，这种看法完全错了。

Perception that success is achieved by some inherent talent is totally wrong.

这完全是错的。

It's totally wrong.

对我来说，真正的真相是，坚持才是所有成功背后默默无闻的英雄。

The truth is to me, consistency is the unsung hero of all success.

因为坚持能推动学习。

Because consistency drives learning.

只要足够坚持，学习最终就会带来精通。

Learning equals eventually mastery, if you're consistent enough.

我之所以学会在台上演讲，就是因为我一直坚持去做，对吧？

Consistency is the reason I've learned to speak on stage because I just kept on doing it, right?

当事情变得艰难，当我根本不想去的时候，我明天早上就要上台演讲了，我是曼彻斯特这场大型会议的主讲嘉宾。

When it was tough, when I didn't want to, I'm speaking tomorrow morning on stage, I'm headlining this massive conference in Manchester.

这已经是我第50次、100次、150次，甚至200次作为压轴嘉宾登台演讲了。

This will be the fiftieth, one hundredth, one hundred and fiftieth, two hundredth time I spoke as a headline speaker now.

我只是日复一日地坚持下来，始终如一。

I've just persisted at it consistently day after day after day after day.

现在我已经完全、彻底地充满了自信。

And now I'm at a point where I'm totally, totally confident.

做生意和创业也是一样的道理。

And the same applies for my business and trying to be an entrepreneur.

我坚持做这一件事，已经持续了七八年甚至十年。

I've spent seven to ten years consistently doing this one thing.

这带来了一定的势头，推动了成长，最终让我明白：持之以恒就是成功的关键。

And that's led to a certain momentum, it's caused my growth and consistency has ultimately equaled my success.

就像我之前提到的“再多做一个”那个观点一样，哪怕你不录播客也无关紧要，但我还是坚持每天凌晨两点起床录制。

Consistency, again, as I said in one of the earlier points about One More Rep is getting out of bed at 2AM in the morning to record that podcast, even though it won't matter if you don't.

这就是坚持的力量。

That's consistency.

最神奇的是，社交媒体上的各种算法，以及生活中许多方面的规则，都是为奖励那些持之以恒的人而设计的。

And the crazy thing is all of the algorithms of social media and all of the, in many respects, algorithms of life are built to reward consistency.

如果你每天都能坚持上传视频，YouTube就会给你更多的流量扶持。

YouTube rewards you if you upload every single day.

算法会把你标记为优质创作者，这样你就能积累起势能，进而让你的内容更容易出现在推荐页面上。

The algorithm ranks you as a better creator and you therefore build momentum and momentum means that you will appear on the discovery pages more.